Hi guys, I have not blogged in a while. Sorry about that!
I have thought to do so many times but I have nothing new to tell you guys.
The girls are still doing just great. I've been sleeping braless for weeks now.
I ran 2 miles a few nights ago- I know- pretty lame but I am just taking it easy.
I am no longer having those awful shooting pains in my chest- that was the worst thing of everything I went through.
I have had so many ladies complement me on how they look- incl the friends who have had the surgery and who recommended them.
My best friend, let's call her Andy, won't stop staring at them though. You won't believe how many times she's seen them and still stares at them! She's worse than a guy.
Anyways, I'll update some pics soon but so far I think they still lool the same.
Thursday, October 2, 2008
Wednesday, August 20, 2008
Dreaming perhaps?
I'm not sure if I was dreaming this or what but I remember something about burning pains in my breast last night. Almost like shooting pains I guess.
Weird thing is that I don't remember whether I was dreaming about it or actually experiencing it.
Oh well, either way, I hear it's normal.
Yesterday I noticed stretch marks on the side of my breasts- something I was anticipating but of course I just thought- "darn it".
Ps. "Special time" with your husband is a great time for boob massaging. Especially when you get a full body massage...
Weird thing is that I don't remember whether I was dreaming about it or actually experiencing it.
Oh well, either way, I hear it's normal.
Yesterday I noticed stretch marks on the side of my breasts- something I was anticipating but of course I just thought- "darn it".
Ps. "Special time" with your husband is a great time for boob massaging. Especially when you get a full body massage...
Saturday, August 16, 2008
A photo update: Day 16
We are getting there, slowly but surely. I spoke with a friend of mine who had her breasts done too and also has silicone. She said that you only really get to appreciate the softness somewhere between 4-6 months.
That being said, they are already feeling really soft to me so any improvement is an added bonus I guess.
Friday, August 15, 2008
Day 15: Sensitive and itchy!
So, knock on wood, the burning has eased up and I am now so itchy I can pull my nipples off!
So yes, every day is a better day. I guess.
Sleeping at night is improving but the boobs still hurt as I am dying to sleep on my side. Guess that might take a couple of more weeks.
Did I mention my scars seem to be doing OK. The funny thing is that I can't see them because I can't see underneath my breasts. Odd but expected.
I lost 5 pounds before surgery, by accident, and I'm hoping to gain that back and more over the next few months. In regard to my weight, it causes you to see wrinkling on the side when you lean all the way over. Pretty weird looking but that's only when I'm braless.
I do think they have been changing a bit because they look smaller to me suddenly. Not disappointingly smaller though. I'm kind of pleased because I felt I could've gone a few cc's smaller. But maybe they are not smaller and just adjusting in shape? As they should.
Every time I walk past my husband, who is yet to get over them, he says: OMG. Look at you! Do you know how nice it is to hear that when you look your worst wearing nothing more than a stained tshirt and shorts?
So yes, every day is a better day. I guess.
Sleeping at night is improving but the boobs still hurt as I am dying to sleep on my side. Guess that might take a couple of more weeks.
Did I mention my scars seem to be doing OK. The funny thing is that I can't see them because I can't see underneath my breasts. Odd but expected.
I lost 5 pounds before surgery, by accident, and I'm hoping to gain that back and more over the next few months. In regard to my weight, it causes you to see wrinkling on the side when you lean all the way over. Pretty weird looking but that's only when I'm braless.
I do think they have been changing a bit because they look smaller to me suddenly. Not disappointingly smaller though. I'm kind of pleased because I felt I could've gone a few cc's smaller. But maybe they are not smaller and just adjusting in shape? As they should.
Every time I walk past my husband, who is yet to get over them, he says: OMG. Look at you! Do you know how nice it is to hear that when you look your worst wearing nothing more than a stained tshirt and shorts?
Wednesday, August 13, 2008
Almost 2 weeks post-op
OMG I am sooo sorry for disappearing! I was on holiday where internet connections are like urban myths.
First of all, the girls are doing great. I think at least :)
I admit I've been really bad. I'm not massaging frequently enough. Some days not at all.
They are changing though- promise to post some pics soon.
I'm having a hard day, let me tell you, for some reason they feel like they burn when I touch them or when my clothes rub against them. It's just killing me. I hear it's because of my nerves recovering. Which is a good sign. I am just hoping the burning stops soon.
Just to quickly recap over the last week and a half:
I pretty much stopped my painkillers (tylenol) a week after surgery. The only thing that was hard was the fact that sleeping was pretty painful. I would get such awful feelings of pressure. I'm guessing because I wasn't moving and everything would get stiff.
Another thing that sucks is that I still can't snuggle at night or sleep on my side. Ugh. Guess how annoying that is.
I was suppose to have my stitches removed but I just had the hardest time getting away from work. So I had my husband (don't worry he's a surgeon) remove it. It took 2min. I am however going back to have them just check things out to check for capsular contraction/ how my scar is healing etc.
I'll keep you guys posted!
Thanks for the love :)
First of all, the girls are doing great. I think at least :)
I admit I've been really bad. I'm not massaging frequently enough. Some days not at all.
They are changing though- promise to post some pics soon.
I'm having a hard day, let me tell you, for some reason they feel like they burn when I touch them or when my clothes rub against them. It's just killing me. I hear it's because of my nerves recovering. Which is a good sign. I am just hoping the burning stops soon.
Just to quickly recap over the last week and a half:
I pretty much stopped my painkillers (tylenol) a week after surgery. The only thing that was hard was the fact that sleeping was pretty painful. I would get such awful feelings of pressure. I'm guessing because I wasn't moving and everything would get stiff.
Another thing that sucks is that I still can't snuggle at night or sleep on my side. Ugh. Guess how annoying that is.
I was suppose to have my stitches removed but I just had the hardest time getting away from work. So I had my husband (don't worry he's a surgeon) remove it. It took 2min. I am however going back to have them just check things out to check for capsular contraction/ how my scar is healing etc.
I'll keep you guys posted!
Thanks for the love :)
Monday, August 4, 2008
When bra's are hard to find...
I heard that it would be hard to find bra's in my size but geeze, I didn't expect it to be this hard.
All my VSecret gift cards are going to have to be put to online purchases I'm afraid. Apparently 32D is not a size they carry in any of their stores. Ugh.
What really annoyed me was that they are so desperate for sales that they even wanted to put me in a 34C as an alternative. How about, "no". I rather want a bra that fits perfectly!
So some disappointment later I went to Macy's and settled for some Calvin Klein bra's. I found the prettiest pink one. Plus did you know how comfortable a wireless, non-padded bra is? I only got 2 as I am concerned my size might go down with the swelling and I might as well get by with a couple for another few weeks or so.
Did I mention how great I am feeling today. I have hardly used any tylenol but I did however get tired in my arms after several hours of shopping.
I can't wait to see the "final" result.
xxx
All my VSecret gift cards are going to have to be put to online purchases I'm afraid. Apparently 32D is not a size they carry in any of their stores. Ugh.
What really annoyed me was that they are so desperate for sales that they even wanted to put me in a 34C as an alternative. How about, "no". I rather want a bra that fits perfectly!
So some disappointment later I went to Macy's and settled for some Calvin Klein bra's. I found the prettiest pink one. Plus did you know how comfortable a wireless, non-padded bra is? I only got 2 as I am concerned my size might go down with the swelling and I might as well get by with a couple for another few weeks or so.
Did I mention how great I am feeling today. I have hardly used any tylenol but I did however get tired in my arms after several hours of shopping.
I can't wait to see the "final" result.
xxx
Sunday, August 3, 2008
Sleeping still sucks
Last night was a little tough. I still had some stabbing pains in my chest- which I hear is normal. I'm having it in my left implant side. The problem with sleeping is that I have found it to be hard because your body is still for so long so it feels as if the muscles are tightning up, so when you wake or move its just an awful feeling of pressure perssing down on you.
Last night was my first night without vicodin so maybe that made it a little harder too. I feel so much more refreshed and "conscious" today. I am also now only taking extra strength tylenol every 6hours. So I'm sleeping longer without having to wake. my next dose is as 10a.
My mood yesterday was irretated because I was just so uncomfortable. I must of had been awake for 3hours during the day. I was just soooo tired.
I am hoping to go see WallE today if I feel rested enough. I'm craving movie theater popcorn and something funny!
So I'm still in my PJ's, but here are some pictures that I took like 3 min after I woke. They are still a little rectangular in the shape between my breasts but that is normal. Do ou know what's nice? My tank top actually fits!
Ugh, it's time for a boob massage. Not the most fun activity at this point.
PS. I think they look pretty nice for 3 days post op. Especially if you consider how much more they will change over the next 6 weeks minimum.
MPP, i'm hoping for playboy boobies too!
Saturday, August 2, 2008
Pain Pump free at last
My wonderful husband was kind enought to remove my pump tonight.
I was really nervous. The only discomfort was the tape being pulled off my skin.
So for the record, I could not even feel the slightest sensation of the pump tubing being removed. You won't believe how far in it was though! I only peeked once and my husband pulled out a good 10inches of tubing. Who knows how much it truly was! I just yelled: omg that is disgusting!
What was really nice was to be able to shower without a bag hanging around my neck.
I followed the shower by a looong massage- I haven't been massaging nearly enough. I did the exercise which I refered to in a previous post and then I just rubbed them with body butter nice and slowly. I think that helped with the ridiculous amount of itching from my skin being stretched. I tend to feel more itchiness when I remove my sportsbra.
I'm having partial sensations in my breasts- which I hope is a good sign.
Do you know what I hate most about my breasts right now? That my nipples look huge. Can't wait for them to calm down! Oh and that my boobs aren't "settled" enough yet.
Ok, I know its not even day 3 yet but I'm excited! My husband is like "all right, they are awesome!".
Good night guys, I'll take some more pictures soon to share the progress with you.
I was really nervous. The only discomfort was the tape being pulled off my skin.
So for the record, I could not even feel the slightest sensation of the pump tubing being removed. You won't believe how far in it was though! I only peeked once and my husband pulled out a good 10inches of tubing. Who knows how much it truly was! I just yelled: omg that is disgusting!
What was really nice was to be able to shower without a bag hanging around my neck.
I followed the shower by a looong massage- I haven't been massaging nearly enough. I did the exercise which I refered to in a previous post and then I just rubbed them with body butter nice and slowly. I think that helped with the ridiculous amount of itching from my skin being stretched. I tend to feel more itchiness when I remove my sportsbra.
I'm having partial sensations in my breasts- which I hope is a good sign.
Do you know what I hate most about my breasts right now? That my nipples look huge. Can't wait for them to calm down! Oh and that my boobs aren't "settled" enough yet.
Ok, I know its not even day 3 yet but I'm excited! My husband is like "all right, they are awesome!".
Good night guys, I'll take some more pictures soon to share the progress with you.
Does recovery ever end?
Have had better days. I got plenty of shut eye last night. Went to bed at 5p. Got up for an hour at 7p. Back to bed and got up at 8am. I did however get up to go sleep on the cough at 1am. A big improvement from the night before.
I went to salon vox this morning to have my hair washed and dryed. Not being a diva but you try and wash your own hair in my position- not so easy.
I took my last vicodin last night at 5am. Even though it helps for the discomfort its just not worth the feeling of yuckiness afterwards. Dizzy, slurring, nauseated etc. My sugeon said I should just do tylenol extra strength for now.
So then I discover I have a discharge sheet to read through (in looking for my dr number). Wish I had found it sooner! All kinds of useful info on there.
So I have to wear a sportsbra for 3months because we don't want the boobs the get droopy. We want them to remain perky but settled. No push up bra because that will hinder the pocket forming. I'm ok with that.
Massaging them sucks. I get so tired after touching them- I have to nap!
Oh and my pump is empty so I get to have my husband remove that tonight. Thank goodness. I less thing to worry about. Now I can shower in peace. Somewhat at least.
I'm sleepy. Talk later!
I went to salon vox this morning to have my hair washed and dryed. Not being a diva but you try and wash your own hair in my position- not so easy.
I took my last vicodin last night at 5am. Even though it helps for the discomfort its just not worth the feeling of yuckiness afterwards. Dizzy, slurring, nauseated etc. My sugeon said I should just do tylenol extra strength for now.
So then I discover I have a discharge sheet to read through (in looking for my dr number). Wish I had found it sooner! All kinds of useful info on there.
So I have to wear a sportsbra for 3months because we don't want the boobs the get droopy. We want them to remain perky but settled. No push up bra because that will hinder the pocket forming. I'm ok with that.
Massaging them sucks. I get so tired after touching them- I have to nap!
Oh and my pump is empty so I get to have my husband remove that tonight. Thank goodness. I less thing to worry about. Now I can shower in peace. Somewhat at least.
I'm sleepy. Talk later!
Friday, August 1, 2008
Gifts for me?
My dearest friend, lets call her Emily, came by today and gave me the cutest card with a Victoria Secret gift card inside. How sweet was that? Oh and how cani forget the large pirex of yummy brownies she brought me? That's what friends are for! She even bathed me :)
I think somewhere I might of had mentioned that www.cprs-aa.com where my surgeon is listed gave me a wonderful gift bag with all kids of goodies in them. As you can see by the photos, I got Glomoist lip treatment, body butter in citrus lavender form their glospa, an SPF product from Sun Smart and thermal spring wate for my face by Avene. What a lovely treat.
Oh and then there where the gorgeous flowers my husband got me.
I'm a princess for a week.... and it feels so good!
Post op day 1 pictures- NUDE
Now remember, they are still extremelly swollen and have to drop in the coming months. This in NOT how they will look. So judge later if you want. Saying something like "ew, they look weird you should never of had done it", makes no sense!
i'm very pleased and no bruising either! I just realised my nipples are 100% numb! What an odd feeling. BTW, it took me 10 min to pull the zipper up. SOOO tight. That's the first time i had that prob! hehe
Sorry, I originally wrote day 2 post op, I was clearly confused.
i'm very pleased and no bruising either! I just realised my nipples are 100% numb! What an odd feeling. BTW, it took me 10 min to pull the zipper up. SOOO tight. That's the first time i had that prob! hehe
Sorry, I originally wrote day 2 post op, I was clearly confused.
Now that I got some shut eye...
Guess what I was doing this morning at 5am. Making a pot of coffee, for my husband before he had to leave for work. Seriously, I so need to change this blogs name to confessions of a trophy wife like some sad sad human being once teased me. Not only is it true but it's funny. No really, I'm not trophy material. Just a wife who feels bad for her husbands 80h work schedule.
So, after brewing coffee, I made some turkey bacon and baked some biscuits for my Dr.and house guests. Dr came over for a few minutes. Put me in my new zip front bra and addressed some leaking of my pain pump on my left side. All we can do is gauze it, it will be out soon enough anyways.
He showed me some massage excersises. It was pretty painful. He was like, are you going to pass out? I was like, no, im ok it just hurts real bad. All it is, is me sitting up straight, stretching out my left arm and pushing the left boob up on the side and bottom until it has a push up bra look. Thats to help form the pockets better and help healing along. So you do it with both sides a couple of times a day. All i can say is it hurts like hell when you do that. phew.
MIL is going to go get some gauze for me at CVS in a minute. My girl friend is coming over and bringing me some Mcd's fries as a treat! yum. I'm going to ask her to do my make up. So that I feel decent.
The vicodin, which I took at 7ish, I need to go check when i took it exaclty, is making me feeling kind of out of it but it helps me sleep at least. Which i need. It feels like it helps for 3h, not 4. So everytime it's just that hour that I need to get through. I have to say, my spelling and grammar is so off! I don't reread my blog before I publish so when I go back later I see this weird sentence construction and typos like you wont believe. Im so sorry about that! Im feeling a bit out of it now. I'm going to go back to sleep.
I'm sleeping on the couch now because it's too hard in bed. I'm slightly sleeping to my right which is very comfy. I swear I passed out at 7:10 and woke at 8:50 when my husband called.
I'm going to go take some pics now and I'll post them in a few minutes.
OMG can't wait to go shower! i need it- gross! It's beena whole 28h!!!!!!
I lterally ate a pack of bacon today. All of it! And it's not even 10am yet! Atleast I have an appetite.
So, after brewing coffee, I made some turkey bacon and baked some biscuits for my Dr.and house guests. Dr came over for a few minutes. Put me in my new zip front bra and addressed some leaking of my pain pump on my left side. All we can do is gauze it, it will be out soon enough anyways.
He showed me some massage excersises. It was pretty painful. He was like, are you going to pass out? I was like, no, im ok it just hurts real bad. All it is, is me sitting up straight, stretching out my left arm and pushing the left boob up on the side and bottom until it has a push up bra look. Thats to help form the pockets better and help healing along. So you do it with both sides a couple of times a day. All i can say is it hurts like hell when you do that. phew.
MIL is going to go get some gauze for me at CVS in a minute. My girl friend is coming over and bringing me some Mcd's fries as a treat! yum. I'm going to ask her to do my make up. So that I feel decent.
The vicodin, which I took at 7ish, I need to go check when i took it exaclty, is making me feeling kind of out of it but it helps me sleep at least. Which i need. It feels like it helps for 3h, not 4. So everytime it's just that hour that I need to get through. I have to say, my spelling and grammar is so off! I don't reread my blog before I publish so when I go back later I see this weird sentence construction and typos like you wont believe. Im so sorry about that! Im feeling a bit out of it now. I'm going to go back to sleep.
I'm sleeping on the couch now because it's too hard in bed. I'm slightly sleeping to my right which is very comfy. I swear I passed out at 7:10 and woke at 8:50 when my husband called.
I'm going to go take some pics now and I'll post them in a few minutes.
OMG can't wait to go shower! i need it- gross! It's beena whole 28h!!!!!!
I lterally ate a pack of bacon today. All of it! And it's not even 10am yet! Atleast I have an appetite.
Thursday, July 31, 2008
2:39 am can't sleep
Well if you are wondering how I'm doing- I've had better nights! Youb jinxed me BIG BUTT! I teazed, thanks for checking in on me.
Sleeping in a propped up position is not the most comfortable. I couldn't sleep too propped or I'd tip over. Don't need that to deal with too. Plus did I mentioned my accules is stiff because I was so smart-my ass!- to trip over my foot the other morning. What idiot does that? Just me.. Silicone must be leaking.
Tip for shared sleepers: use you own blankie so you don't have to worry about husband pulling it every time and potentially ripping your pump.
My husband does these things that I call shrimp jumps or shrimp dives and then there's the whale dive. A shrimp jump is a small adjustment by full body, no arms involved, in your bed, with a little bounce. A shrimp dive is more of an arched shrimp jump and a whale dive is a full 180 turn aound that he does and he bumps me with his butt as he positions himself. The stupid phrases we come up with! (Plus the whale one came from when he gained slight weight and I teazed him.) I'm such a mean wife. Its all in good fun though.
So yes, I can't take any more valium until 4:15 so I'm stuck on my livingroom couch, super comfy, blogging about shrimp jumps at almost 3am.
Of course, the husband is trying to snuggle with me all the time and then I have to push him away so his hands stay away from me.
Last night I looked through the side bandages and saw I had these bloody pipes on the side from the pump. I thought there was bloody water drainage involved. All I saw all day was this kangaroo pouch (seriously fanny pack) looking thing with what looks like 2ml/h meds in it.
My nurse called me to check on me. She was delighted to hear I wasn't nauseated. And very alert.
She said it was normal to have bubbles under my skin all the way up to my snoeshie (my vajayjay- did I mention that's my nickname, its a cute word my mom still calls me and hub stole). It's from creating my "pockets" so its just air and water. I asked her if it was ok for me to have bloodyness where my srainage pumps are and she said yes. Though excessively, no. What is excessive I ask??? I'm guessing blood all over the place.
*This following paragraph contains gross material- don't read if your sensitive to gory stuff.*
Can't wait for that the pain pump to come out in 3 days, well 2 days from now. My one girl friend said when you remove it, it has the feeling (don't read this if you will bw grossed out- WARNING. of pulling out a tampon. Great, guess how much I'm going to hate that. It should leave a pencil tip scar on the side boob.
I think its time to eat something before I take my meds so I won't feel ill. I'm going to do the 1 valium every 4 hours again because the 2 just feels like I have to wait forever!
Dr Izenberg from saint josephs mercy called last night too. He'll be over at 6:15am. I guess I'll make him some coffee- poor guy. Doctors work so hard and long hours in their personal time. Hope he likes lattes!
Can't wait to see them! I'm just dying. I think I'll get to put on a sports bra and have a shower today. Hooray!
Thank you for the kind posts. It's an absolute treat. I'm suppose to get a little depressed post surgery for a few days while in pain so the kind words really help. I'm feeling a little teary right now. Some sleep, food and pain meds should help.
I hope this blog is useful to other woman who too consider having any kind of surgery done.
On that note, time to go take care of myself.
Sleep tight everyone, as I'm surely not.
Sleeping in a propped up position is not the most comfortable. I couldn't sleep too propped or I'd tip over. Don't need that to deal with too. Plus did I mentioned my accules is stiff because I was so smart-my ass!- to trip over my foot the other morning. What idiot does that? Just me.. Silicone must be leaking.
Tip for shared sleepers: use you own blankie so you don't have to worry about husband pulling it every time and potentially ripping your pump.
My husband does these things that I call shrimp jumps or shrimp dives and then there's the whale dive. A shrimp jump is a small adjustment by full body, no arms involved, in your bed, with a little bounce. A shrimp dive is more of an arched shrimp jump and a whale dive is a full 180 turn aound that he does and he bumps me with his butt as he positions himself. The stupid phrases we come up with! (Plus the whale one came from when he gained slight weight and I teazed him.) I'm such a mean wife. Its all in good fun though.
So yes, I can't take any more valium until 4:15 so I'm stuck on my livingroom couch, super comfy, blogging about shrimp jumps at almost 3am.
Of course, the husband is trying to snuggle with me all the time and then I have to push him away so his hands stay away from me.
Last night I looked through the side bandages and saw I had these bloody pipes on the side from the pump. I thought there was bloody water drainage involved. All I saw all day was this kangaroo pouch (seriously fanny pack) looking thing with what looks like 2ml/h meds in it.
My nurse called me to check on me. She was delighted to hear I wasn't nauseated. And very alert.
She said it was normal to have bubbles under my skin all the way up to my snoeshie (my vajayjay- did I mention that's my nickname, its a cute word my mom still calls me and hub stole). It's from creating my "pockets" so its just air and water. I asked her if it was ok for me to have bloodyness where my srainage pumps are and she said yes. Though excessively, no. What is excessive I ask??? I'm guessing blood all over the place.
*This following paragraph contains gross material- don't read if your sensitive to gory stuff.*
Can't wait for that the pain pump to come out in 3 days, well 2 days from now. My one girl friend said when you remove it, it has the feeling (don't read this if you will bw grossed out- WARNING. of pulling out a tampon. Great, guess how much I'm going to hate that. It should leave a pencil tip scar on the side boob.
I think its time to eat something before I take my meds so I won't feel ill. I'm going to do the 1 valium every 4 hours again because the 2 just feels like I have to wait forever!
Dr Izenberg from saint josephs mercy called last night too. He'll be over at 6:15am. I guess I'll make him some coffee- poor guy. Doctors work so hard and long hours in their personal time. Hope he likes lattes!
Can't wait to see them! I'm just dying. I think I'll get to put on a sports bra and have a shower today. Hooray!
Thank you for the kind posts. It's an absolute treat. I'm suppose to get a little depressed post surgery for a few days while in pain so the kind words really help. I'm feeling a little teary right now. Some sleep, food and pain meds should help.
I hope this blog is useful to other woman who too consider having any kind of surgery done.
On that note, time to go take care of myself.
Sleep tight everyone, as I'm surely not.
About my 1st post op day
OK so i might be paying the price tomorrow but....
This all means a lot to me.
I went in at 6:45a, peed in a cup for a pregnancy test, put my robe, socks and calf things on. Oh and a hairnet thing. They put me in a lovely recliner chair with a thermal blanket. Fetched everything for me out of my hospital bag, my pills, documents etc. They even opened the faucet for the water to warm up so my hands wouldn't be cold when I wash them!
Everyone was kind, happy, positive and sweet. Dr Izenberg came in and did my markings in dot like markings (easier and less to clean).
At 7:30 I walked into the room next door, it was in a hospital. They helped me into my bed with pillows and warm blankets. Warned me of any cold sensations. Numbed my hand before they inserted the IV. Explained all potential sensations. Just treated me like a princess!
After the IV was inserted the nurse anestestist told me that she just released the anestesia. I literally responded, oh already, great, whoooooooooooo........ Yeah really it was in an instant. No spinning room nothing. At least, if it was I don't recall a thing.
My next memory was waking up in my chair under my cover with a registered nurse monitoring my blood pressure.
I started to cry. She said: "are you in pain?" I said: I feel great, I just wish my husband was here to tell me he loves me". She gave me a tissue and wiped my eyes. I was a little emotional before the surgery. She responded with: Would you like for me to call your MIL to come in now? And she did.
I peaked while still and my chair. They looked so great! Not even up high as they sometimes are which means the placement is great and if all is well they will drop to a more natural place.
MY MIL was delighted by my size. I think she was scared they would end up too big! She's been complimenting me all day!
SHe drove me home, I took some pics for you guys, facebooked, send some emails and napped an half hour later for just 2 hours. I've been up and about all day.
I've been eating butterscoth jello, which she made. Saltines, bananas and had a reb bull, my fav drink. I'm sure the caffeine can't be good for me but I was craving it. I'm doing the bland food thing so I won't strain my digestive system.
Apart from my pain pump which makes me look like flavor flave, I had 1 vicodin after my nap along with an over the counter stool softner. I should take the stool softner only twice a day. I had another vicodin at 6:30.
I walked to my mailbox today which left me out of breath once I came up the stairs. I was walking at a snail pace. My neighbors must of had thought I was high! I only did that at 5p.
Around lunch I was paying on line bills etc.
I've been on the phone ALL day. Started to read the great gatsby. Sorry too much effort to use caps all the time. Tried to close my eyes but I was just too excited.
I feel awesome, except for the feeling of a suma wrestler sitting on my chest. I think I feel slight plopping now, which is just the air moving its way out... or my body telling me to stop typing.
Dr told me I can put my bikini on after a week. He's coming over tomorrow to my house to check on me. How sweet.
Did I forget to mention they gifted me a bag of their beauty products? Not to be used on the incisions until after they heal and the Dr says it's ok.
My face color is a bit off but I slapped on some face tanner 2 days ago so I do look loads better with it.
OK, my dvd of desperate housewives is coming so I need to go relax now and be a good patient!
WIshing all you well
This all means a lot to me.
I went in at 6:45a, peed in a cup for a pregnancy test, put my robe, socks and calf things on. Oh and a hairnet thing. They put me in a lovely recliner chair with a thermal blanket. Fetched everything for me out of my hospital bag, my pills, documents etc. They even opened the faucet for the water to warm up so my hands wouldn't be cold when I wash them!
Everyone was kind, happy, positive and sweet. Dr Izenberg came in and did my markings in dot like markings (easier and less to clean).
At 7:30 I walked into the room next door, it was in a hospital. They helped me into my bed with pillows and warm blankets. Warned me of any cold sensations. Numbed my hand before they inserted the IV. Explained all potential sensations. Just treated me like a princess!
After the IV was inserted the nurse anestestist told me that she just released the anestesia. I literally responded, oh already, great, whoooooooooooo........ Yeah really it was in an instant. No spinning room nothing. At least, if it was I don't recall a thing.
My next memory was waking up in my chair under my cover with a registered nurse monitoring my blood pressure.
I started to cry. She said: "are you in pain?" I said: I feel great, I just wish my husband was here to tell me he loves me". She gave me a tissue and wiped my eyes. I was a little emotional before the surgery. She responded with: Would you like for me to call your MIL to come in now? And she did.
I peaked while still and my chair. They looked so great! Not even up high as they sometimes are which means the placement is great and if all is well they will drop to a more natural place.
MY MIL was delighted by my size. I think she was scared they would end up too big! She's been complimenting me all day!
SHe drove me home, I took some pics for you guys, facebooked, send some emails and napped an half hour later for just 2 hours. I've been up and about all day.
I've been eating butterscoth jello, which she made. Saltines, bananas and had a reb bull, my fav drink. I'm sure the caffeine can't be good for me but I was craving it. I'm doing the bland food thing so I won't strain my digestive system.
Apart from my pain pump which makes me look like flavor flave, I had 1 vicodin after my nap along with an over the counter stool softner. I should take the stool softner only twice a day. I had another vicodin at 6:30.
I walked to my mailbox today which left me out of breath once I came up the stairs. I was walking at a snail pace. My neighbors must of had thought I was high! I only did that at 5p.
Around lunch I was paying on line bills etc.
I've been on the phone ALL day. Started to read the great gatsby. Sorry too much effort to use caps all the time. Tried to close my eyes but I was just too excited.
I feel awesome, except for the feeling of a suma wrestler sitting on my chest. I think I feel slight plopping now, which is just the air moving its way out... or my body telling me to stop typing.
Dr told me I can put my bikini on after a week. He's coming over tomorrow to my house to check on me. How sweet.
Did I forget to mention they gifted me a bag of their beauty products? Not to be used on the incisions until after they heal and the Dr says it's ok.
My face color is a bit off but I slapped on some face tanner 2 days ago so I do look loads better with it.
OK, my dvd of desperate housewives is coming so I need to go relax now and be a good patient!
WIshing all you well
For "Does this moniker make my butt look big"
Sorry couldn't resist.....
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41APzy5kqBU
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41APzy5kqBU
That was one hell of a cocktail..... 2 hours post surgery
I'm so drugged up this is the best I can do ladies.
No pain yet, just pressure on my chest.
I'm sleepy
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Thinking positive- or maybe not?
I still don't feel like I'm actually going through this.
Tomorrow this time I'll be crying: why did I do this to myself?
This all a little crazy. I've been preparing my hospital bag and even that has not really made things sink in yet.
I guess when I'm driving over tomorrow and they start drawing on me with a marker it will hit me.
I still need to go to the bank, grocery shop, pick up my prescription, do my hair and remove all nail polish and navigate MIL flight arrival.Did I forget to mention that I have to work late tonight? And get up early to leave at 6:15a? Gross. That's way too early for me. And fast! I'm a mid night snacker. Guess how much that is going to suck!
Poor me. And all is self inflicted. No pain- no gain!
I'll keep you guys posted as soon as I can touch my keypad!
And I'll be away from ISYN for a while. Since depression is a post surgery side effect in most cases I'll be keeping away from "the envious kind".
Tomorrow this time I'll be crying: why did I do this to myself?
This all a little crazy. I've been preparing my hospital bag and even that has not really made things sink in yet.
I guess when I'm driving over tomorrow and they start drawing on me with a marker it will hit me.
I still need to go to the bank, grocery shop, pick up my prescription, do my hair and remove all nail polish and navigate MIL flight arrival.Did I forget to mention that I have to work late tonight? And get up early to leave at 6:15a? Gross. That's way too early for me. And fast! I'm a mid night snacker. Guess how much that is going to suck!
Poor me. And all is self inflicted. No pain- no gain!
I'll keep you guys posted as soon as I can touch my keypad!
And I'll be away from ISYN for a while. Since depression is a post surgery side effect in most cases I'll be keeping away from "the envious kind".
Monday, July 28, 2008
Pre-op to do list
1. Fill prescriptions
2. Stock up on recovery snacks
3. Put all important phone numbers for plastic surgery office next to your phone incase of complications.
4. Clear bedside of all junk and make space for only necessary objects.
5. Make sure you have your recovery garments.
6. Purchase dial soap for bathing the night before and morning of.
7. Remove all nail polish- for surgeons to see if your nails turn blue from lack of oxygen.
8. Use make up remover to get rid of all mascara.
9. Pre-cook food for recovery.
10. Remember to not eat or drink anything before surgery.
11. Relax
2. Stock up on recovery snacks
3. Put all important phone numbers for plastic surgery office next to your phone incase of complications.
4. Clear bedside of all junk and make space for only necessary objects.
5. Make sure you have your recovery garments.
6. Purchase dial soap for bathing the night before and morning of.
7. Remove all nail polish- for surgeons to see if your nails turn blue from lack of oxygen.
8. Use make up remover to get rid of all mascara.
9. Pre-cook food for recovery.
10. Remember to not eat or drink anything before surgery.
11. Relax
Bringing up the obvious to your employers
In any professional environment no one has the right to question things that are private.
I wanted to bring the subject of my surgery up because it could possibly affect my work performance initially but I didn't know how.
So last night I was asked to help out the morning of my first day of holiday. I felt bad because the dad would be all by himself and I knew there was just no way that I would be able to help. So I just told him- slightly. I said: I would love to but I'm having a feminine surgery that morning.
After I send that I thought, oh no, what if they think it's something serious and it ends up like that vaginal rejuvination story.
Thankfully the mom (who I adore) asked me if I was ok this morning so I just told her the details.
I said I am having breast surgery and then it took her a second to realise what I meant.
I was so surprised by how happy she was for me. She was oh, I'm so having that done after we decide if we will be having any more kids. She said after all the breastfeeding her boobs just "deflated". (She's also skinny and petite- though very beautiful!)
I was kind of surprised at her openess to the subject. She was of course tactfully asking about saline/silicone. I just told her what I was getting.
I made it clear that I don't want to have watermelons for boobs. She laughed and thought it was funny. I wanted her to know that I just wanted to look in proportion and not like an over exposed bimbo.
I'm kind of relieved now.
I should've known that they would be supportive and happy for me. Shame on me for not knowing or doubting their thoughtfulness.
I wanted to bring the subject of my surgery up because it could possibly affect my work performance initially but I didn't know how.
So last night I was asked to help out the morning of my first day of holiday. I felt bad because the dad would be all by himself and I knew there was just no way that I would be able to help. So I just told him- slightly. I said: I would love to but I'm having a feminine surgery that morning.
After I send that I thought, oh no, what if they think it's something serious and it ends up like that vaginal rejuvination story.
Thankfully the mom (who I adore) asked me if I was ok this morning so I just told her the details.
I said I am having breast surgery and then it took her a second to realise what I meant.
I was so surprised by how happy she was for me. She was oh, I'm so having that done after we decide if we will be having any more kids. She said after all the breastfeeding her boobs just "deflated". (She's also skinny and petite- though very beautiful!)
I was kind of surprised at her openess to the subject. She was of course tactfully asking about saline/silicone. I just told her what I was getting.
I made it clear that I don't want to have watermelons for boobs. She laughed and thought it was funny. I wanted her to know that I just wanted to look in proportion and not like an over exposed bimbo.
I'm kind of relieved now.
I should've known that they would be supportive and happy for me. Shame on me for not knowing or doubting their thoughtfulness.
Saturday, July 26, 2008
Stressed?
Ugh. I've been the uber bitch the last 48h. I think I'm subconciously stressed and taking it out on my husband.
Help! Before I drive him nuts. My mind is just kind of racing and all over the place.
Less than 5 days to go.
Help! Before I drive him nuts. My mind is just kind of racing and all over the place.
Less than 5 days to go.
Friday, July 25, 2008
Jockey's shipping is fast
That only took 3 days to ship. Got my sport bras. The quality is great.
Btw, pre-op and post-up picks are coming soon.
I am still to decide whether or not to put up completely nude shots of my breasts.
I'll start with the bikini top ones first I guess.
Btw, pre-op and post-up picks are coming soon.
I am still to decide whether or not to put up completely nude shots of my breasts.
I'll start with the bikini top ones first I guess.
Thursday, July 24, 2008
Ssssswipe
Yes that was the sound of my credit card being traumatized by 7 grand.
Great. I hate having credit card debt.
Great. I hate having credit card debt.
Wednesday, July 23, 2008
8 days???
I'm a loser. I know it. 8 days to go.
I got my bikinis and I can't wait to wear them. They are so beautiful.
I guess I'll have to get some 'toned down' swim wear for work- I really don't need any married men staring at me in swim class, more than they already do...
I'm praying my recovery bras will arrive on time.
Darn it, I just realised I need to replace my brand spankin' new sports bra for the gym. It's so pretty :(
Btw, VS has a huge summer clearance sale on basic tanks and tees. I'll be ordering some things soon.
I got my bikinis and I can't wait to wear them. They are so beautiful.
I guess I'll have to get some 'toned down' swim wear for work- I really don't need any married men staring at me in swim class, more than they already do...
I'm praying my recovery bras will arrive on time.
Darn it, I just realised I need to replace my brand spankin' new sports bra for the gym. It's so pretty :(
Btw, VS has a huge summer clearance sale on basic tanks and tees. I'll be ordering some things soon.
Tuesday, July 22, 2008
Zipper front sport bra's are hard to find
You guys just won't believe how hard it has been to find a sportsbra that zips up in front. You'd think with the hundreds of thousands of breast surgical procedures that woman get in a year, that those bra companies would manufacture lines for woman in need. But oh no..
After hunting through department store shelves I finally found some online.
Chamion was still sold out last night. So I settled for jockey.I ordered a small and a medium, got free shipping and will be returning the one that doesn't fit post surgery for a refund.
I also went to the gym last night and after running and ab crunches I did way too many lunges. I did the jumping ones which are pretty crazy. I felt them this morning when I woke. I'm not going to be able to work out for a while so I want to do as much as I can in the next 9 days. I suppose I might be able to do some gentle lunges after a week. I want my legs to be toned and my butt to be better- so I am slightly trying. Yes, slightly because I am too lazy.
Plus my body needs to be beach ready for the southern hemisphere summer. You can't pull of a vs super sexy bathing suit with nice breasts if the rest is not perfect.
After hunting through department store shelves I finally found some online.
Chamion was still sold out last night. So I settled for jockey.I ordered a small and a medium, got free shipping and will be returning the one that doesn't fit post surgery for a refund.
I also went to the gym last night and after running and ab crunches I did way too many lunges. I did the jumping ones which are pretty crazy. I felt them this morning when I woke. I'm not going to be able to work out for a while so I want to do as much as I can in the next 9 days. I suppose I might be able to do some gentle lunges after a week. I want my legs to be toned and my butt to be better- so I am slightly trying. Yes, slightly because I am too lazy.
Plus my body needs to be beach ready for the southern hemisphere summer. You can't pull of a vs super sexy bathing suit with nice breasts if the rest is not perfect.
Monday, July 21, 2008
10 more days!
I had a fitting saturday for my sizing again. I'm so confused. I have no idea which I want!
Its going to come down to my surgeon getting both moderate and high profile implants and seeing which will work best while they create my breast pockets.
I just want them to look as natural as possible. Its not about the cc's for me- though my surgeon does think that the 400 will be better than the 375cc's as they'll be sub-pectoral and will end up looking more like 325.
I really need to order my recovery bra's today. I was too distracted all weekend. It feels like my mind is in a million places right now. I have so much going on I just don't know if I'm even capable of appreciating the anticipation of surgery.
Its going to come down to my surgeon getting both moderate and high profile implants and seeing which will work best while they create my breast pockets.
I just want them to look as natural as possible. Its not about the cc's for me- though my surgeon does think that the 400 will be better than the 375cc's as they'll be sub-pectoral and will end up looking more like 325.
I really need to order my recovery bra's today. I was too distracted all weekend. It feels like my mind is in a million places right now. I have so much going on I just don't know if I'm even capable of appreciating the anticipation of surgery.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Preparing your home for surgery
It is important to take good care of yourself in preparation of your big day but there are many other things to consider.
Here are some things I will be doing to make recovery more bearable.
Have some housecleaners come to do a deep clean- you thus elimanate any additional bacteria to provide a cleaner environment to heal.
Stock your house with small water bottles( they are easier to lift). Do remember to loosen the caps in advance so you don't have to strain yourself in opening them.
Pre-make food, or if you are the microwave dinner kind, stock up on those.
I personally recommend staying away from the high sodium junk. Instead, make something nutritious and home made to help give your body the essential vitamins and minerals you need- plus what is better than a home cooked meal when you don't feel well?
I will be making my moms lasagne and mash potatoes the night before and a lemon meringue pie- my favorite comfort food!
Remember to stock your house with saltines and pop for any initial nausea( which comes from the anestesia wearing off and any prescription pain medication.( Stop the pain meds if you feel ill and use tylenol instead) You might want light stuff like jello too. I'll be stocked with bacon and home made biscuits too- I need a big breakfast.
Have someone help you recover- I have a MIL coming for 7 days. The nice thing about that is that she'll take care of any house errands and cooking!
Here are some things I will be doing to make recovery more bearable.
Have some housecleaners come to do a deep clean- you thus elimanate any additional bacteria to provide a cleaner environment to heal.
Stock your house with small water bottles( they are easier to lift). Do remember to loosen the caps in advance so you don't have to strain yourself in opening them.
Pre-make food, or if you are the microwave dinner kind, stock up on those.
I personally recommend staying away from the high sodium junk. Instead, make something nutritious and home made to help give your body the essential vitamins and minerals you need- plus what is better than a home cooked meal when you don't feel well?
I will be making my moms lasagne and mash potatoes the night before and a lemon meringue pie- my favorite comfort food!
Remember to stock your house with saltines and pop for any initial nausea( which comes from the anestesia wearing off and any prescription pain medication.( Stop the pain meds if you feel ill and use tylenol instead) You might want light stuff like jello too. I'll be stocked with bacon and home made biscuits too- I need a big breakfast.
Have someone help you recover- I have a MIL coming for 7 days. The nice thing about that is that she'll take care of any house errands and cooking!
i just realised
That I have just 2 more weeks to go until my surgery.
At some point I expect the nerves to get to me- maybe right before I get my anestesia when it all starts feeling real!
Thank goodness I'll be very busy the week of surgery so I won't have too much time to think about it.
On that note, let me go take my vit c suppliments.
At some point I expect the nerves to get to me- maybe right before I get my anestesia when it all starts feeling real!
Thank goodness I'll be very busy the week of surgery so I won't have too much time to think about it.
On that note, let me go take my vit c suppliments.
Wednesday, July 16, 2008
Big tatas = Low IQ
Apparently so...
So I have only 2 blogs that I follow religously. Today on one of them, some unhappy, ugly, depressed and prejudice so called human being, who lives by herself in some dump in NY city (who pretends to be wealthy) had the audacity to refer to me as ridiculous. All because I'm documenting my surgery.
Not only that but she hates immigrants and refered to them as "some working visa girl who came to the US to get a rich husband". For the first time in my life I was floored at how disgusting and entitled people can act! Not only was it incredibly insulting to be exposed to her bitter heartedness but an incredible disappointment to any other good american- of who their are too many to name. Did you forget that you too where once an immigrant?
This all started after I made a spelling mistake from typing too fast on my blackberry. Mind you I don't proof read comments I make either! When I addressed her and mentioned that english was my second language and that I frequently spell things wrong- but that this was a typo- I again made a spelling error- I was attacked again. Then when I was trying to be sarcastic and spelled predjudice wrong purposely - very clearly- some idiot had the balls to attack me again because the poor idiot was to stupid to pick up on what I had done!
Anyways, I don't know what I'm more grossed out about: the bitch who hates anything that's not american, white and perfectly english speaking or the other bitch that refered to me as unintelligent because I am getting a breast augmentation.
Really, someone even said that my blog is an example of what's wrong with girls in the world today.
So after being exposed to all those single, pathetic and nasty bitches; its my turn to turn into bitch mode.
So in defense of my wonderful and loving american husband- he might not be rich but he is phenomonal.
In defense of all people who realise that english is not the only language in the modern world- be proud of your culture and speak what ever you choose to speak as much as you like. Do not let red necks refer to you as dumb because you don't speak their language flawlessly.
In defense of any woman who has had or wants any kind of plastic surgery- screw the haters.
And to you, the anonymous bitch, who is such a disgusting bigot. I hope you walk in front of a train. The less of you in the world the better.
So I have only 2 blogs that I follow religously. Today on one of them, some unhappy, ugly, depressed and prejudice so called human being, who lives by herself in some dump in NY city (who pretends to be wealthy) had the audacity to refer to me as ridiculous. All because I'm documenting my surgery.
Not only that but she hates immigrants and refered to them as "some working visa girl who came to the US to get a rich husband". For the first time in my life I was floored at how disgusting and entitled people can act! Not only was it incredibly insulting to be exposed to her bitter heartedness but an incredible disappointment to any other good american- of who their are too many to name. Did you forget that you too where once an immigrant?
This all started after I made a spelling mistake from typing too fast on my blackberry. Mind you I don't proof read comments I make either! When I addressed her and mentioned that english was my second language and that I frequently spell things wrong- but that this was a typo- I again made a spelling error- I was attacked again. Then when I was trying to be sarcastic and spelled predjudice wrong purposely - very clearly- some idiot had the balls to attack me again because the poor idiot was to stupid to pick up on what I had done!
Anyways, I don't know what I'm more grossed out about: the bitch who hates anything that's not american, white and perfectly english speaking or the other bitch that refered to me as unintelligent because I am getting a breast augmentation.
Really, someone even said that my blog is an example of what's wrong with girls in the world today.
So after being exposed to all those single, pathetic and nasty bitches; its my turn to turn into bitch mode.
So in defense of my wonderful and loving american husband- he might not be rich but he is phenomonal.
In defense of all people who realise that english is not the only language in the modern world- be proud of your culture and speak what ever you choose to speak as much as you like. Do not let red necks refer to you as dumb because you don't speak their language flawlessly.
In defense of any woman who has had or wants any kind of plastic surgery- screw the haters.
And to you, the anonymous bitch, who is such a disgusting bigot. I hope you walk in front of a train. The less of you in the world the better.
Those darn bra sales ladies
Why is is that when you walk into a bra section the first thing those girls do is size you up? "Yeah this a cup should be perfect" no sweetheart I'm a B cup! Hmpf
So today I popped into the mall to check out the front closing bras. The only place that had them was JCpenny's but it was crappy quality and didn't look too comfortable.
I tried the chamion bras on to see how they fit and let me tell you the medium is just too wide around my waist. Its now my conclusion that I should just get both (small and medium) and return the one that doesn't fit! Only as I'll have swelling and I'm concerned my 30band width and c/d cup boobs will be too tight in a small and cause chafing. So I rather would prefer to be more comfortable in the chest and loose in the band size than the other way around.
I am most likely to go with jockey as champion is sold out. They only differ $1 in brands any ways.
The point of my mall trip was only to get an estimate of band size.
So today I popped into the mall to check out the front closing bras. The only place that had them was JCpenny's but it was crappy quality and didn't look too comfortable.
I tried the chamion bras on to see how they fit and let me tell you the medium is just too wide around my waist. Its now my conclusion that I should just get both (small and medium) and return the one that doesn't fit! Only as I'll have swelling and I'm concerned my 30band width and c/d cup boobs will be too tight in a small and cause chafing. So I rather would prefer to be more comfortable in the chest and loose in the band size than the other way around.
I am most likely to go with jockey as champion is sold out. They only differ $1 in brands any ways.
The point of my mall trip was only to get an estimate of band size.
Friday, July 11, 2008
How long until I can wear a bikini?
So about 8 days after surgery we are going to go visit some friends who are renting a cabin up north. They are getting a pontoon too.
My question is how long until I can wear a wireless bikini and how long until I can have max 3 beers or so?
UPDATE: you can have alcohol as soon as you are off your pain medication.
My question is how long until I can wear a wireless bikini and how long until I can have max 3 beers or so?
UPDATE: you can have alcohol as soon as you are off your pain medication.
Last dr appointment
So I'm going in this saturday at 9:15 to do a last fitting with dr izenberg to confirm my profile and cc size.
They had to get some moderate profile implant samples so that we could see what they would look like in a sportsbra vs the high profile which the nurse was concerned might be too much of a "step" on my chest. Also, based on the profile we need to compare the 375cc to 400cc.
I'll keep you posted on what we will decide saturday.
They had to get some moderate profile implant samples so that we could see what they would look like in a sportsbra vs the high profile which the nurse was concerned might be too much of a "step" on my chest. Also, based on the profile we need to compare the 375cc to 400cc.
I'll keep you posted on what we will decide saturday.
Thursday, July 10, 2008
Wednesday, July 9, 2008
What you"ll need post-surgery
Ihave really been wanting to order/purchase some recovery garments but I'm not quite sure what the best way is to go about this.
Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.
I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.
I'll keep you posted on where I found them and how I find them to fit!
Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.
I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.
I'll keep you posted on where I found them and how I find them to fit!
What you"ll need post-surgery
Ihave really been wanting to order/purchase some recovery garments but I'm not quite sure what the best way is to go about this.
Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.
I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.
Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.
I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.
Suddenly it's everyones business
So I admit that I have not exactly been classy or appropriate at all times about my wanting breast implants. In fact, I must just about have blurted it out to everyone I know.
Of course most girls have responded with a "NO- you don't need it", even some men.
My parents couldn't care less as I live half way across the world from them, I could probably cut my arm off and they'd still be "ok- love you. And hope to see you soon! bye".
The only people I was nervous telling was my in laws. (Note: all of them has had some combination of a rhinoplasty(twice), eye work, face lift and breast surgery. Well unlike a nose job I think people think of a breast augmentation different. Plus my sister in law had hers done with the wrong profile and volume which led to a reduction/revision years later and she had so many problems with men being innapropriate with her (literally grabbing her breasts in a work environment) etc.
My inlaws are thus concerned that I might have the same problem and only care for my well being 100%. I personally think they might be a little disappointed in my decision and have politely insisted that I shouldn't think I need it. That's why my husband called to notify them after we did the deposit- so its not negotiable, more just telling them.
So my MIL is actually flying all the way to help me through my first days- thank god or my husband would probably eat chinese every night( which incl.me!).this way I'll have someone to cook at least and eat real(home made) food!
Ps. I'm still blurting it out to everyone I know.
Of course most girls have responded with a "NO- you don't need it", even some men.
My parents couldn't care less as I live half way across the world from them, I could probably cut my arm off and they'd still be "ok- love you. And hope to see you soon! bye".
The only people I was nervous telling was my in laws. (Note: all of them has had some combination of a rhinoplasty(twice), eye work, face lift and breast surgery. Well unlike a nose job I think people think of a breast augmentation different. Plus my sister in law had hers done with the wrong profile and volume which led to a reduction/revision years later and she had so many problems with men being innapropriate with her (literally grabbing her breasts in a work environment) etc.
My inlaws are thus concerned that I might have the same problem and only care for my well being 100%. I personally think they might be a little disappointed in my decision and have politely insisted that I shouldn't think I need it. That's why my husband called to notify them after we did the deposit- so its not negotiable, more just telling them.
So my MIL is actually flying all the way to help me through my first days- thank god or my husband would probably eat chinese every night( which incl.me!).this way I'll have someone to cook at least and eat real(home made) food!
Ps. I'm still blurting it out to everyone I know.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Things I want - now that I will have boobs
Victoria's secret makes me drool, are these not just awesome and most of them are on sale!
Oh well, I went ahead and bought 3 of the bikinis, number 1,2 and 4 except number 4 I got in pink.
23 Days until my surgery
Yes it's official, I am getting my tata's! I am hoping for loads of emails and flowers and sexy underwear from everyone!
My consult went...
great!
I went to see Dr Izenberg and he is just so sweet and adorable! Yesterday was his 30 year "anniversary" of how long he has been doing this. Experience has got to count for something, right?
Actually Dr Izenberg is incredibly well respected and considered the "boob guy" in town. He is very sincere, which always says a lot and came across as very interested in my life.
So we talked about silicone companies, profile shapes, size, complications, statistics, my satisfaction which as he put it is his satisfaction and a whole lot more.
He took my measurements - a perfect triangle as he said, and then let his nurse do some fittings with me.
The didn't have moderate profile implants in 375cc's so they said that they would contact their rep and ask them to loan them some- as they are $800 each- and due to my busy schedule Dr Izenberg offered to see me on a Saturday at my convenience and to do a final pre-op over the phone.
Part of my going back is to do a physical and of course final sizing. I am also to do a CBC to make sure I'm not anemic.
As part of my recovery Dr Izenberg recommended use of a pain pump which helps speed up recovery. When asked about additional scarring i was told it only leaves a almost invisible scar the size of a pencil point. This comes at a fee of $250. They actually gave us a 10% discount which I thought was very nice. All thanks to my husband of course.
After every thing I paid a deposit, as part of my total fee to secure my surgery date.
I went to see Dr Izenberg and he is just so sweet and adorable! Yesterday was his 30 year "anniversary" of how long he has been doing this. Experience has got to count for something, right?
Actually Dr Izenberg is incredibly well respected and considered the "boob guy" in town. He is very sincere, which always says a lot and came across as very interested in my life.
So we talked about silicone companies, profile shapes, size, complications, statistics, my satisfaction which as he put it is his satisfaction and a whole lot more.
He took my measurements - a perfect triangle as he said, and then let his nurse do some fittings with me.
The didn't have moderate profile implants in 375cc's so they said that they would contact their rep and ask them to loan them some- as they are $800 each- and due to my busy schedule Dr Izenberg offered to see me on a Saturday at my convenience and to do a final pre-op over the phone.
Part of my going back is to do a physical and of course final sizing. I am also to do a CBC to make sure I'm not anemic.
As part of my recovery Dr Izenberg recommended use of a pain pump which helps speed up recovery. When asked about additional scarring i was told it only leaves a almost invisible scar the size of a pencil point. This comes at a fee of $250. They actually gave us a 10% discount which I thought was very nice. All thanks to my husband of course.
After every thing I paid a deposit, as part of my total fee to secure my surgery date.
Thursday, July 3, 2008
Starting from scratch - AGAIN
So after all the hassle to reschedule me at a certain prefered institution I am now back to square 1 again.
(I was booked on the wrong day and they had no other date to reschedule me too)
So now I am set up to go see Dr Paul Izenberg.
I called Pat who is covering for his surgery schedular today and she set me up for an appointment monday because they can't hold my prefered surgery date without a consult and deposit.
This time I am taking my husband with me. I have already done the fittings but I really want his opinion in terms of size. As I mentioned previously we where thinking 20mentor 400 cc's but that might change.
I have a feeling he is going to tell me they are going to be too big. And knowing him, he is going to obsess about my surgery for the next 4 weeks. I am most likely going to regret him coming but I rather have him know 110% what is going on as apposed to him wondering and bothering me with 100 questions!
Oh gosh I can just imagine the looks and expression of concern I will get when they are all swollen and the one is higher than the other during recovery. Maybe I should get him a recovery manual...
I don't want to jump the gun but if my consult goes well I'll be having surgery in less than 4 weeks. More like 25 days. Yikes!
How exciting and nerve wrecking. I don't really know how to feel about it.
Surgery is a big deal and I don't know how I will handle the recovery by any means. I have a feeling I won't be the tylenol girl, more the valium kind.I'm such a wuss.
The other thing is that I need to find someone to help me during the 1st 24-48h. My surgery will be at 7:30am which means I should be out midday at least- all depending on how well I can get off the anestesia. Hopefully my husband can be done with work early and take me home or I'll have to ask one of my girlfriends to drive me home and stay with me until he gets home. Then there is the next day during which I will need someone too. The rest of the time my husband will hopefully be home to help me.
His holiday starts 2 days after my surgery, I purposely wanted him to not be off those first couple of days because he only gets a week and I want to be "conscious" and able to enjoy some of it with him as apposed to him having to sit in the house all day with me during the worst part of it.
(I was booked on the wrong day and they had no other date to reschedule me too)
So now I am set up to go see Dr Paul Izenberg.
I called Pat who is covering for his surgery schedular today and she set me up for an appointment monday because they can't hold my prefered surgery date without a consult and deposit.
This time I am taking my husband with me. I have already done the fittings but I really want his opinion in terms of size. As I mentioned previously we where thinking 20mentor 400 cc's but that might change.
I have a feeling he is going to tell me they are going to be too big. And knowing him, he is going to obsess about my surgery for the next 4 weeks. I am most likely going to regret him coming but I rather have him know 110% what is going on as apposed to him wondering and bothering me with 100 questions!
Oh gosh I can just imagine the looks and expression of concern I will get when they are all swollen and the one is higher than the other during recovery. Maybe I should get him a recovery manual...
I don't want to jump the gun but if my consult goes well I'll be having surgery in less than 4 weeks. More like 25 days. Yikes!
How exciting and nerve wrecking. I don't really know how to feel about it.
Surgery is a big deal and I don't know how I will handle the recovery by any means. I have a feeling I won't be the tylenol girl, more the valium kind.I'm such a wuss.
The other thing is that I need to find someone to help me during the 1st 24-48h. My surgery will be at 7:30am which means I should be out midday at least- all depending on how well I can get off the anestesia. Hopefully my husband can be done with work early and take me home or I'll have to ask one of my girlfriends to drive me home and stay with me until he gets home. Then there is the next day during which I will need someone too. The rest of the time my husband will hopefully be home to help me.
His holiday starts 2 days after my surgery, I purposely wanted him to not be off those first couple of days because he only gets a week and I want to be "conscious" and able to enjoy some of it with him as apposed to him having to sit in the house all day with me during the worst part of it.
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
A decent boob job
Don't these look so much better? The 2 before shots are almost identical in comparison to the article below!
Friday, June 13, 2008
Seeing another surgeon
I was pleased with my original surgeon, though another thing could be said for the registered nurse with her long white coat(which is another story) who seemed a little on the not so bright side. She was a sweetheart however.
Turns out my surgeons schedule has changed and that he no longer operates on Thursdays.
So I'm going to go see a very well respected female surgeon whose schedule overlaps perfectly with mine.
Some of you might be wondering why I am going to go see someone when I can't afford the surgery in the first place.
So this is the deal. I don't have almost $7 000, just sitting around. I have a ton of other expenses but I have just decided to get a 0% apr credit card deal with chase and to swipe it. That's right, just swipe it.
I know its innapropriate to do thos right now but I have waited years to do this. Fact is, for the next 8 yrs I'm still gonna have this financial strain but I don't want to be an old cougar by the time I do this. I'll have other things to fix by then. Like a saggy butt, varicose and spider veins, wrinkles and cellulite.
Last night I walked around in my awesome gym pants that has the effect of spanx and my rice test boobs and that's when I realised I love my body. Some girls would kill to be my size and shape- as my husband says. (Isn't he the sweetest?) I felt in proportion, my waist looked beautiful and my butt pretended to be less jiggly for a moment.
I realised that I am human, imperfect and that there is nothing wrong with wanting to improve myself even if it means making a 2inch incision on my breasts to do so.
Turns out my surgeons schedule has changed and that he no longer operates on Thursdays.
So I'm going to go see a very well respected female surgeon whose schedule overlaps perfectly with mine.
Some of you might be wondering why I am going to go see someone when I can't afford the surgery in the first place.
So this is the deal. I don't have almost $7 000, just sitting around. I have a ton of other expenses but I have just decided to get a 0% apr credit card deal with chase and to swipe it. That's right, just swipe it.
I know its innapropriate to do thos right now but I have waited years to do this. Fact is, for the next 8 yrs I'm still gonna have this financial strain but I don't want to be an old cougar by the time I do this. I'll have other things to fix by then. Like a saggy butt, varicose and spider veins, wrinkles and cellulite.
Last night I walked around in my awesome gym pants that has the effect of spanx and my rice test boobs and that's when I realised I love my body. Some girls would kill to be my size and shape- as my husband says. (Isn't he the sweetest?) I felt in proportion, my waist looked beautiful and my butt pretended to be less jiggly for a moment.
I realised that I am human, imperfect and that there is nothing wrong with wanting to improve myself even if it means making a 2inch incision on my breasts to do so.
Saturday, June 7, 2008
Working on my fitness
Let me tell you, as i was just DYING in midst of my cardio today i found motivation in keeping going by closing my eyes, imagining myself in fantastic shape on the beach doing "the baywatch run". It was so funny- it worked!
Realistic results
So my surgeon has assigned me to a website to help me understand what realistic expectations can be potentially via comparison to other woman who has similar looking breasts.
I couldn't find breasts that where very similar but so far this is all i got. Her stats are also very different from mine but I think it does help give a better idea.
Subject above has the following stats: :
Age: 32, white, 3 kids, none breastfed
Height: 5'3
Weight: 123
Size: I went from an A cup to a D cup
Implants: Mentor High Profile (HP)
Implant Fill: Saline, 380 cc's filled to 430 cc's
Implant Profile: High Profile
Implant Shape: Round
Implant Surface: Smooth
Implant Placement: Under the muscle
Incision: Crease (inframammary)
My profile:
Age: 23 caucasian, no kids
Height: 5'3.5"
Weight: 108
Size: 32B to small D
Implants: Mentor High Profile (HP)
Implant Fill: (potentially: Silicone) 400-425max
Implant Profile: High Profile
Implant Shape: Round
Implant Surface: Smooth
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
On the fence
I'm having a hard time figuring this one out. In one way, I have accepted the inability do have my surgery due to a lack of sufficient funds. Though in another sense, I feel like it still could happen. Plus my husband who was initially not too exited about it is now more encouraging. What do I do?
Sunday, May 4, 2008
Thursday, April 24, 2008
Broken-hearted
It's a day after my breast augmentation consult and I have to admit that I am very sad.
My consult went well. As I was sitting in the office waiting (45 min) I thought to myself. Wow, this is actual surgery. How crazy.
I tried on plenty of implant sizes and think we decided on silicone, the 20- a width size- not inches! And 400 cc.
So I came home and then the problem was. Is this really and affordable thing in our current lives? How are we going to pay for our international trip to see my family- next year, a car for me, my education and then we are not even touching the subject of my husbands $200 000 student loans debt.
I spend all of last night crying. Woke up with ridiculously swollen eyes to go to work. I'm still fighting back the tears as I am writing this today.
I am so sad. I really wanted this. Though I have to keep in mind it is $6 800. I think I just realized this is never going to happen for me. It's just not a financial option right now.
I really am so sad. I wish I just had the money. I wanted to do this for myself so bad. I deserve it.
I suppose the next step is canceling my surgery date. I can't even think it without tears welling in my eyes.
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Thursday, March 27, 2008
Struggling with no before and after photos
I live in the Midwest. A smallish town in the midwest might I add. I don't exactly have the biggest choice of surgeons.
So in setting up my consult with Renee I was informed, when I asked, that my Dr of choice does not offer photos of his breast augmentations. As in before and after.
I really don't understand that. I've never heard of that to be honest. Do you go to a car salesman and buy a car without viewing it first? No, of course not. But then again, this is a Dr who is booked so far in advance that you can't even get an appointment for 8 weeks in the "quiet" season! Peak being over the holidays from what I understand.
See the fact of the matter is, I don't doubt his quality of work but I still want to see it.
So now I'm struggling to figure out what to do. Should I completely scratch this surgeon and look for someone else or should I just trust in his reputation from word of mouth?
UPDATE: Well since he doesn't have any available photos I suppose I just have to make some available for any one who might want that kind of information.
Rescheduling my appointment again
OK, so I promise this will be the last time I reschedule.
So I changed my consult date to April 23rd. Something just feels good about that date.
Count down: 27 days
Whoohoo!
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
Trying to set my appointment
I'm a little disappointed. So I was told by my Dr that I can tell the office to squeeze me in whenever is convenient for me. So as I tried to reschedule today a snappy old lady asked me not so politely-"why". Um, why do you think? Because maybe the 16th doesn't work for me? And told me the 16th will be fine for my appointment. Are you kidding me?
Monday, March 10, 2008
Counting down the months
Oh my gosh, am I exited or what! I feel like a 16 year old boy; all I can talk and think about is my breasts. I also dream about them over and over -almost every other night.
Maybe that had something to do with the fact that I tried on every dress in my closet last night with 425 cc of "rice boobs" to see if my beloved dresses would still fit. Let me tell you, it was a tight fit!
It's so weird to think that in 4 months I'll be walking around with a completely different physique.
One thing I have noticed with my rice test though is that it makes me look less skinny. Which is great. Less kid and more woman at last. It's just such a beautiful feeling for me. It makes me so excited.
Seriously, like once a week I parade around the house with my stuffed sports bra. It's so fun. On top of that- every time I purchase a nice item of clothing it's done with the intent of, will this fit in 5 months around my bust? So when I get home with pretty things I try it on immeadiately so that I can imagine the effect.
The only current dilemma I have is- what size bathing suit should i get at victoria's secret? They have this awesome piece that I am terrified to lose out on. Should I just go ahead and get it? Im so tempted Im about to pull my hair out!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
Preparing for your consult with your Plastic Surgeon
If you think you should just show up to your PS office with your current set of "twins"... think again. It takes more work than you think!
The first thing I am going to refer to is size. What size do you want to be? Sound's easy enough right? Well think again. Most woman who have a BA(breast augmentation) end up saying I wish I got them bigger. Why? Could it perhaps be that post op you have a huge amount of swelling and the amount of swelling that subsides got you over exited initially?
Here is what I would recommend.
1. Do the rice test. It's not 100% accurate but its a great way to get a feel for what you will like. You fill up a knee high stocking with as much rice cc's as you'd like and put it under your sports bra for best effect.
Measure it out in a measuring cup. every 1ml is 1cc. so every tbs is 15cc. 1 measuring cup(not bra cup) is 250 cc's, half 125 cc's etc. Before I guessed I wanted 350 max and then when i put in the 350 i was like no way its too small. Shocked I filled it up to 450 cc's then took another 25 out and found a great size. I walked around for 8h with my stuffed sports bra, was very comfortable-surprisingly- and the moment I took them off I couldn't look at myself in the mirror.
Now remember, this is a great way to prepare yourself when going to the Dr. Take them with and tell him you did the rice test and show him how it looked under your sports bra so that he will have a good idea what your looking for in size. He'll explain the more advanced things to you like using a say 400 cc implant and filling it to 450 to get the 425 cc look for an under the muscle procedure. Last mentioned is just an example not a fact/estimate. I'm just trying to help you understand that there are more complex things involved. Again, do try the rice test though, you wont be disappointed!
2. Take pictures of what you like and more importantly what you DON'T like.
3. Educate yourself about risks and realize that you are setting yourself up for multiple procedures over your life time as they on overage only have a life span of say 15yrs. But who know it can be 5 yrs! Are you able to deal with that expense?
4. What if something goes wrong? Can you afford a procedure in as short as a few months? Remember that all these expenses are out of pocket even if something goes wrong like say bleeding or an infection or rippling of the implant.
5. Know your options! Silicone vs saline. What's the difference -except that silicone is $1000 more? Do you know that silicone feels and looks more natural? Is it worth the risk for you?
6. Do you know how implants can affect your mammogram screening and breast feeding
potentially?
My point is not to scare you but just to help you make an INFORMED decision so that you can't say down the line.. " I wish I knew.."
A favorite website of mine is breastimplants4u.com
Here is a bit of what they say about preparing yourself for your consult
Step 1: Making a consulting appointment
Making that first phone call to your plastic surgeons office is the first step to help you achieve your goal.
Fortunately, I'm married to a surgeon and we thus have many plastic surgeons for friends. I was recommended to a well known Dr who actually only does 30% cosmetic surgery. His work is excellent. In the majority of circumstances, it is not recommended to pick a surgeon of such sorts because you really want someone who specializes in 1 field. Unless you come across a truly talented surgeon.
So I went ahead and booked my appointment for April 16th at 3h30 with Dr. Paul Cederna. I am so exited I just can't wait to go see him.
Days until consult: 43
What will you do?
Every now and again we as humans reach a cross road. We look in the mirror and suddenly wish we had the body of a victoria secret model. Toned legs, flat tummy, a perfect bust and a year long golden bronze glow and sexy, tassled hair from a day at the beach.
It's not easy to accept that we all are not 6 foot models. Though eventually we do. When we do reach that cross road we either act or let it be. What am I going to do? Act.
So I'm only 5'3.5". 108 pounds. Flat chested and a salon blond and have cellulite. Never have I done a days work out in the gym, done toning/strength exercises or anything.
Time for things to change. That was 1 month ago.
To date, I have decided to do more than just read celebrity blogs. I have started walking with my husband around the lake even though its freezing and mushy from the snow outside. I've started to do some strengthening exercises. Lunges, reverse lunges, leg stretches for my glutes and the accasional strip tease cardio. Anything to tone my legs and butt. I realized that my body has gone through a big change in the last year and a half and that it has not been for the better. I have also have not had any requirements to wear a bathing suit and that has made me extra lazy about my body. Enough is enough.
My goal has been to get my body in shape, not losing weight. Rather, gaining weight in muscle and hopefully toning my butt enough to improve the look of my cellulite.
I feel so much better when I exercise. Even though its just 20 min at a time, days per week. Ultimately, I'd like to pump that up with a 3mile run in the woods during the spring and summer and more intense glute exercises so that I can be in even better shape during the winter for our trip to South Africa in the summer of Jan 09.
My reward for my commitment? A breast augmentation to sex up my look.
After years of wanting and waiting I have decided... enough with the padded bra's already! Victoria Secret can only do so much for a girl and it just is not enough.
Over the next few months I'll be documenting my thoughts with words and photos to hopefully help other woman who are curious or interested in going through the same thing to help improve their experience.
Bring on the ta-ta's!
*UPDATE: Just for the record. I have already seen a noticeable improvement in my upper legs just from my 20 min's a day routine. A little goes a long way*
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