Thursday, July 31, 2008

2:39 am can't sleep

Well if you are wondering how I'm doing- I've had better nights! Youb jinxed me BIG BUTT! I teazed, thanks for checking in on me.

Sleeping in a propped up position is not the most comfortable. I couldn't sleep too propped or I'd tip over. Don't need that to deal with too. Plus did I mentioned my accules is stiff because I was so smart-my ass!- to trip over my foot the other morning. What idiot does that? Just me.. Silicone must be leaking.

Tip for shared sleepers: use you own blankie so you don't have to worry about husband pulling it every time and potentially ripping your pump.

My husband does these things that I call shrimp jumps or shrimp dives and then there's the whale dive. A shrimp jump is a small adjustment by full body, no arms involved, in your bed, with a little bounce. A shrimp dive is more of an arched shrimp jump and a whale dive is a full 180 turn aound that he does and he bumps me with his butt as he positions himself. The stupid phrases we come up with! (Plus the whale one came from when he gained slight weight and I teazed him.) I'm such a mean wife. Its all in good fun though.

So yes, I can't take any more valium until 4:15 so I'm stuck on my livingroom couch, super comfy, blogging about shrimp jumps at almost 3am.

Of course, the husband is trying to snuggle with me all the time and then I have to push him away so his hands stay away from me.

Last night I looked through the side bandages and saw I had these bloody pipes on the side from the pump. I thought there was bloody water drainage involved. All I saw all day was this kangaroo pouch (seriously fanny pack) looking thing with what looks like 2ml/h meds in it.

My nurse called me to check on me. She was delighted to hear I wasn't nauseated. And very alert.

She said it was normal to have bubbles under my skin all the way up to my snoeshie (my vajayjay- did I mention that's my nickname, its a cute word my mom still calls me and hub stole). It's from creating my "pockets" so its just air and water. I asked her if it was ok for me to have bloodyness where my srainage pumps are and she said yes. Though excessively, no. What is excessive I ask??? I'm guessing blood all over the place.

*This following paragraph contains gross material- don't read if your sensitive to gory stuff.*

Can't wait for that the pain pump to come out in 3 days, well 2 days from now. My one girl friend said when you remove it, it has the feeling (don't read this if you will bw grossed out- WARNING. of pulling out a tampon. Great, guess how much I'm going to hate that. It should leave a pencil tip scar on the side boob.

I think its time to eat something before I take my meds so I won't feel ill. I'm going to do the 1 valium every 4 hours again because the 2 just feels like I have to wait forever!

Dr Izenberg from saint josephs mercy called last night too. He'll be over at 6:15am. I guess I'll make him some coffee- poor guy. Doctors work so hard and long hours in their personal time. Hope he likes lattes!

Can't wait to see them! I'm just dying. I think I'll get to put on a sports bra and have a shower today. Hooray!

Thank you for the kind posts. It's an absolute treat. I'm suppose to get a little depressed post surgery for a few days while in pain so the kind words really help. I'm feeling a little teary right now. Some sleep, food and pain meds should help.

I hope this blog is useful to other woman who too consider having any kind of surgery done.

On that note, time to go take care of myself.


Sleep tight everyone, as I'm surely not.

About my 1st post op day

OK so i might be paying the price tomorrow but....

This all means a lot to me.

I went in at 6:45a, peed in a cup for a pregnancy test, put my robe, socks and calf things on. Oh and a hairnet thing. They put me in a lovely recliner chair with a thermal blanket. Fetched everything for me out of my hospital bag, my pills, documents etc. They even opened the faucet for the water to warm up so my hands wouldn't be cold when I wash them!

Everyone was kind, happy, positive and sweet. Dr Izenberg came in and did my markings in dot like markings (easier and less to clean).

At 7:30 I walked into the room next door, it was in a hospital. They helped me into my bed with pillows and warm blankets. Warned me of any cold sensations. Numbed my hand before they inserted the IV. Explained all potential sensations. Just treated me like a princess!

After the IV was inserted the nurse anestestist told me that she just released the anestesia. I literally responded, oh already, great, whoooooooooooo........ Yeah really it was in an instant. No spinning room nothing. At least, if it was I don't recall a thing.
My next memory was waking up in my chair under my cover with a registered nurse monitoring my blood pressure.

I started to cry. She said: "are you in pain?" I said: I feel great, I just wish my husband was here to tell me he loves me". She gave me a tissue and wiped my eyes. I was a little emotional before the surgery. She responded with: Would you like for me to call your MIL to come in now? And she did.

I peaked while still and my chair. They looked so great! Not even up high as they sometimes are which means the placement is great and if all is well they will drop to a more natural place.

MY MIL was delighted by my size. I think she was scared they would end up too big! She's been complimenting me all day!

SHe drove me home, I took some pics for you guys, facebooked, send some emails and napped an half hour later for just 2 hours. I've been up and about all day.

I've been eating butterscoth jello, which she made. Saltines, bananas and had a reb bull, my fav drink. I'm sure the caffeine can't be good for me but I was craving it. I'm doing the bland food thing so I won't strain my digestive system.

Apart from my pain pump which makes me look like flavor flave, I had 1 vicodin after my nap along with an over the counter stool softner. I should take the stool softner only twice a day. I had another vicodin at 6:30.

I walked to my mailbox today which left me out of breath once I came up the stairs. I was walking at a snail pace. My neighbors must of had thought I was high! I only did that at 5p.

Around lunch I was paying on line bills etc.
I've been on the phone ALL day. Started to read the great gatsby. Sorry too much effort to use caps all the time. Tried to close my eyes but I was just too excited.

I feel awesome, except for the feeling of a suma wrestler sitting on my chest. I think I feel slight plopping now, which is just the air moving its way out... or my body telling me to stop typing.

Dr told me I can put my bikini on after a week. He's coming over tomorrow to my house to check on me. How sweet.
Did I forget to mention they gifted me a bag of their beauty products? Not to be used on the incisions until after they heal and the Dr says it's ok.

My face color is a bit off but I slapped on some face tanner 2 days ago so I do look loads better with it.

OK, my dvd of desperate housewives is coming so I need to go relax now and be a good patient!

WIshing all you well

For "Does this moniker make my butt look big"

Sorry couldn't resist.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41APzy5kqBU

That was one hell of a cocktail..... 2 hours post surgery





I'm so drugged up this is the best I can do ladies.
No pain yet, just pressure on my chest.
I'm sleepy

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

Thinking positive- or maybe not?

I still don't feel like I'm actually going through this.

Tomorrow this time I'll be crying: why did I do this to myself?

This all a little crazy. I've been preparing my hospital bag and even that has not really made things sink in yet.

I guess when I'm driving over tomorrow and they start drawing on me with a marker it will hit me.

I still need to go to the bank, grocery shop, pick up my prescription, do my hair and remove all nail polish and navigate MIL flight arrival.Did I forget to mention that I have to work late tonight? And get up early to leave at 6:15a? Gross. That's way too early for me. And fast! I'm a mid night snacker. Guess how much that is going to suck!

Poor me. And all is self inflicted. No pain- no gain!

I'll keep you guys posted as soon as I can touch my keypad!
And I'll be away from ISYN for a while. Since depression is a post surgery side effect in most cases I'll be keeping away from "the envious kind".

Monday, July 28, 2008

Pre-op to do list

1. Fill prescriptions
2. Stock up on recovery snacks
3. Put all important phone numbers for plastic surgery office next to your phone incase of complications.
4. Clear bedside of all junk and make space for only necessary objects.
5. Make sure you have your recovery garments.
6. Purchase dial soap for bathing the night before and morning of.
7. Remove all nail polish- for surgeons to see if your nails turn blue from lack of oxygen.
8. Use make up remover to get rid of all mascara.
9. Pre-cook food for recovery.
10. Remember to not eat or drink anything before surgery.
11. Relax

Wait...

I forgot to announce the obvious. 3 DAYS TO GO!

Bringing up the obvious to your employers

In any professional environment no one has the right to question things that are private.

I wanted to bring the subject of my surgery up because it could possibly affect my work performance initially but I didn't know how.

So last night I was asked to help out the morning of my first day of holiday. I felt bad because the dad would be all by himself and I knew there was just no way that I would be able to help. So I just told him- slightly. I said: I would love to but I'm having a feminine surgery that morning.

After I send that I thought, oh no, what if they think it's something serious and it ends up like that vaginal rejuvination story.

Thankfully the mom (who I adore) asked me if I was ok this morning so I just told her the details.

I said I am having breast surgery and then it took her a second to realise what I meant.

I was so surprised by how happy she was for me. She was oh, I'm so having that done after we decide if we will be having any more kids. She said after all the breastfeeding her boobs just "deflated". (She's also skinny and petite- though very beautiful!)

I was kind of surprised at her openess to the subject. She was of course tactfully asking about saline/silicone. I just told her what I was getting.

I made it clear that I don't want to have watermelons for boobs. She laughed and thought it was funny. I wanted her to know that I just wanted to look in proportion and not like an over exposed bimbo.
I'm kind of relieved now.

I should've known that they would be supportive and happy for me. Shame on me for not knowing or doubting their thoughtfulness.

Saturday, July 26, 2008

Pre-op picture




Side profile in a recovery sports bra.
I'l start with this and add some more later

Stressed?

Ugh. I've been the uber bitch the last 48h. I think I'm subconciously stressed and taking it out on my husband.

Help! Before I drive him nuts. My mind is just kind of racing and all over the place.

Less than 5 days to go.

Friday, July 25, 2008

Jockey's shipping is fast

That only took 3 days to ship. Got my sport bras. The quality is great.

Btw, pre-op and post-up picks are coming soon.

I am still to decide whether or not to put up completely nude shots of my breasts.

I'll start with the bikini top ones first I guess.

Thursday, July 24, 2008

Ssssswipe

Yes that was the sound of my credit card being traumatized by 7 grand.

Great. I hate having credit card debt.

Wednesday, July 23, 2008

8 days???

I'm a loser. I know it. 8 days to go.

I got my bikinis and I can't wait to wear them. They are so beautiful.

I guess I'll have to get some 'toned down' swim wear for work- I really don't need any married men staring at me in swim class, more than they already do...

I'm praying my recovery bras will arrive on time.

Darn it, I just realised I need to replace my brand spankin' new sports bra for the gym. It's so pretty :(

Btw, VS has a huge summer clearance sale on basic tanks and tees. I'll be ordering some things soon.

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Zipper front sport bra's are hard to find

You guys just won't believe how hard it has been to find a sportsbra that zips up in front. You'd think with the hundreds of thousands of breast surgical procedures that woman get in a year, that those bra companies would manufacture lines for woman in need. But oh no..

After hunting through department store shelves I finally found some online.

Chamion was still sold out last night. So I settled for jockey.I ordered a small and a medium, got free shipping and will be returning the one that doesn't fit post surgery for a refund.

I also went to the gym last night and after running and ab crunches I did way too many lunges. I did the jumping ones which are pretty crazy. I felt them this morning when I woke. I'm not going to be able to work out for a while so I want to do as much as I can in the next 9 days. I suppose I might be able to do some gentle lunges after a week. I want my legs to be toned and my butt to be better- so I am slightly trying. Yes, slightly because I am too lazy.

Plus my body needs to be beach ready for the southern hemisphere summer. You can't pull of a vs super sexy bathing suit with nice breasts if the rest is not perfect.

Monday, July 21, 2008

10 more days!

I had a fitting saturday for my sizing again. I'm so confused. I have no idea which I want!

Its going to come down to my surgeon getting both moderate and high profile implants and seeing which will work best while they create my breast pockets.

I just want them to look as natural as possible. Its not about the cc's for me- though my surgeon does think that the 400 will be better than the 375cc's as they'll be sub-pectoral and will end up looking more like 325.

I really need to order my recovery bra's today. I was too distracted all weekend. It feels like my mind is in a million places right now. I have so much going on I just don't know if I'm even capable of appreciating the anticipation of surgery.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Preparing your home for surgery

It is important to take good care of yourself in preparation of your big day but there are many other things to consider.

Here are some things I will be doing to make recovery more bearable.

Have some housecleaners come to do a deep clean- you thus elimanate any additional bacteria to provide a cleaner environment to heal.

Stock your house with small water bottles( they are easier to lift). Do remember to loosen the caps in advance so you don't have to strain yourself in opening them.

Pre-make food, or if you are the microwave dinner kind, stock up on those.

I personally recommend staying away from the high sodium junk. Instead, make something nutritious and home made to help give your body the essential vitamins and minerals you need- plus what is better than a home cooked meal when you don't feel well?
I will be making my moms lasagne and mash potatoes the night before and a lemon meringue pie- my favorite comfort food!

Remember to stock your house with saltines and pop for any initial nausea( which comes from the anestesia wearing off and any prescription pain medication.( Stop the pain meds if you feel ill and use tylenol instead) You might want light stuff like jello too. I'll be stocked with bacon and home made biscuits too- I need a big breakfast.

Have someone help you recover- I have a MIL coming for 7 days. The nice thing about that is that she'll take care of any house errands and cooking!

i just realised

That I have just 2 more weeks to go until my surgery.

At some point I expect the nerves to get to me- maybe right before I get my anestesia when it all starts feeling real!

Thank goodness I'll be very busy the week of surgery so I won't have too much time to think about it.

On that note, let me go take my vit c suppliments.

Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Big tatas = Low IQ

Apparently so...

So I have only 2 blogs that I follow religously. Today on one of them, some unhappy, ugly, depressed and prejudice so called human being, who lives by herself in some dump in NY city (who pretends to be wealthy) had the audacity to refer to me as ridiculous. All because I'm documenting my surgery.

Not only that but she hates immigrants and refered to them as "some working visa girl who came to the US to get a rich husband". For the first time in my life I was floored at how disgusting and entitled people can act! Not only was it incredibly insulting to be exposed to her bitter heartedness but an incredible disappointment to any other good american- of who their are too many to name. Did you forget that you too where once an immigrant?

This all started after I made a spelling mistake from typing too fast on my blackberry. Mind you I don't proof read comments I make either! When I addressed her and mentioned that english was my second language and that I frequently spell things wrong- but that this was a typo- I again made a spelling error- I was attacked again. Then when I was trying to be sarcastic and spelled predjudice wrong purposely - very clearly- some idiot had the balls to attack me again because the poor idiot was to stupid to pick up on what I had done!

Anyways, I don't know what I'm more grossed out about: the bitch who hates anything that's not american, white and perfectly english speaking or the other bitch that refered to me as unintelligent because I am getting a breast augmentation.

Really, someone even said that my blog is an example of what's wrong with girls in the world today.

So after being exposed to all those single, pathetic and nasty bitches; its my turn to turn into bitch mode.

So in defense of my wonderful and loving american husband- he might not be rich but he is phenomonal.

In defense of all people who realise that english is not the only language in the modern world- be proud of your culture and speak what ever you choose to speak as much as you like. Do not let red necks refer to you as dumb because you don't speak their language flawlessly.

In defense of any woman who has had or wants any kind of plastic surgery- screw the haters.

And to you, the anonymous bitch, who is such a disgusting bigot. I hope you walk in front of a train. The less of you in the world the better.

Those darn bra sales ladies

Why is is that when you walk into a bra section the first thing those girls do is size you up? "Yeah this a cup should be perfect" no sweetheart I'm a B cup! Hmpf

So today I popped into the mall to check out the front closing bras. The only place that had them was JCpenny's but it was crappy quality and didn't look too comfortable.

I tried the chamion bras on to see how they fit and let me tell you the medium is just too wide around my waist. Its now my conclusion that I should just get both (small and medium) and return the one that doesn't fit! Only as I'll have swelling and I'm concerned my 30band width and c/d cup boobs will be too tight in a small and cause chafing. So I rather would prefer to be more comfortable in the chest and loose in the band size than the other way around.

I am most likely to go with jockey as champion is sold out. They only differ $1 in brands any ways.

The point of my mall trip was only to get an estimate of band size.

Friday, July 11, 2008

How long until I can wear a bikini?

So about 8 days after surgery we are going to go visit some friends who are renting a cabin up north. They are getting a pontoon too.

My question is how long until I can wear a wireless bikini and how long until I can have max 3 beers or so?

UPDATE: you can have alcohol as soon as you are off your pain medication.

Last dr appointment

So I'm going in this saturday at 9:15 to do a last fitting with dr izenberg to confirm my profile and cc size.

They had to get some moderate profile implant samples so that we could see what they would look like in a sportsbra vs the high profile which the nurse was concerned might be too much of a "step" on my chest. Also, based on the profile we need to compare the 375cc to 400cc.

I'll keep you posted on what we will decide saturday.

Thursday, July 10, 2008

3 weeks to go

Yes- I'm still counting down the days yipee!

Wednesday, July 9, 2008

What you"ll need post-surgery

Ihave really been wanting to order/purchase some recovery garments but I'm not quite sure what the best way is to go about this.

Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.

I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.

I'll keep you posted on where I found them and how I find them to fit!

What you"ll need post-surgery

Ihave really been wanting to order/purchase some recovery garments but I'm not quite sure what the best way is to go about this.

Some say to go to jc penny and get some comfy WIRELESS cotton bras. Some say sport bras are the way to go etc. Some even recommend the wrap.

I think I'm just going to go get some comfy sport bras first- or something that zips/buttons up in the front.

Suddenly it's everyones business

So I admit that I have not exactly been classy or appropriate at all times about my wanting breast implants. In fact, I must just about have blurted it out to everyone I know.

Of course most girls have responded with a "NO- you don't need it", even some men.

My parents couldn't care less as I live half way across the world from them, I could probably cut my arm off and they'd still be "ok- love you. And hope to see you soon! bye".

The only people I was nervous telling was my in laws. (Note: all of them has had some combination of a rhinoplasty(twice), eye work, face lift and breast surgery. Well unlike a nose job I think people think of a breast augmentation different. Plus my sister in law had hers done with the wrong profile and volume which led to a reduction/revision years later and she had so many problems with men being innapropriate with her (literally grabbing her breasts in a work environment) etc.

My inlaws are thus concerned that I might have the same problem and only care for my well being 100%. I personally think they might be a little disappointed in my decision and have politely insisted that I shouldn't think I need it. That's why my husband called to notify them after we did the deposit- so its not negotiable, more just telling them.

So my MIL is actually flying all the way to help me through my first days- thank god or my husband would probably eat chinese every night( which incl.me!).this way I'll have someone to cook at least and eat real(home made) food!

Ps. I'm still blurting it out to everyone I know.

Tuesday, July 8, 2008

Things I want - now that I will have boobs







Victoria's secret makes me drool, are these not just awesome and most of them are on sale!

Oh well, I went ahead and bought 3 of the bikinis, number 1,2 and 4 except number 4 I got in pink.

23 Days until my surgery

Yes it's official, I am getting my tata's! I am hoping for loads of emails and flowers and sexy underwear from everyone!

My consult went...

great!

I went to see Dr Izenberg and he is just so sweet and adorable! Yesterday was his 30 year "anniversary" of how long he has been doing this. Experience has got to count for something, right?

Actually Dr Izenberg is incredibly well respected and considered the "boob guy" in town. He is very sincere, which always says a lot and came across as very interested in my life.

So we talked about silicone companies, profile shapes, size, complications, statistics, my satisfaction which as he put it is his satisfaction and a whole lot more.

He took my measurements - a perfect triangle as he said, and then let his nurse do some fittings with me.

The didn't have moderate profile implants in 375cc's so they said that they would contact their rep and ask them to loan them some- as they are $800 each- and due to my busy schedule Dr Izenberg offered to see me on a Saturday at my convenience and to do a final pre-op over the phone.

Part of my going back is to do a physical and of course final sizing. I am also to do a CBC to make sure I'm not anemic.

As part of my recovery Dr Izenberg recommended use of a pain pump which helps speed up recovery. When asked about additional scarring i was told it only leaves a almost invisible scar the size of a pencil point. This comes at a fee of $250. They actually gave us a 10% discount which I thought was very nice. All thanks to my husband of course.

After every thing I paid a deposit, as part of my total fee to secure my surgery date.

Thursday, July 3, 2008

Starting from scratch - AGAIN

So after all the hassle to reschedule me at a certain prefered institution I am now back to square 1 again.

(I was booked on the wrong day and they had no other date to reschedule me too)

So now I am set up to go see Dr Paul Izenberg.

I called Pat who is covering for his surgery schedular today and she set me up for an appointment monday because they can't hold my prefered surgery date without a consult and deposit.

This time I am taking my husband with me. I have already done the fittings but I really want his opinion in terms of size. As I mentioned previously we where thinking 20mentor 400 cc's but that might change.

I have a feeling he is going to tell me they are going to be too big. And knowing him, he is going to obsess about my surgery for the next 4 weeks. I am most likely going to regret him coming but I rather have him know 110% what is going on as apposed to him wondering and bothering me with 100 questions!

Oh gosh I can just imagine the looks and expression of concern I will get when they are all swollen and the one is higher than the other during recovery. Maybe I should get him a recovery manual...

I don't want to jump the gun but if my consult goes well I'll be having surgery in less than 4 weeks. More like 25 days. Yikes!

How exciting and nerve wrecking. I don't really know how to feel about it.

Surgery is a big deal and I don't know how I will handle the recovery by any means. I have a feeling I won't be the tylenol girl, more the valium kind.I'm such a wuss.

The other thing is that I need to find someone to help me during the 1st 24-48h. My surgery will be at 7:30am which means I should be out midday at least- all depending on how well I can get off the anestesia. Hopefully my husband can be done with work early and take me home or I'll have to ask one of my girlfriends to drive me home and stay with me until he gets home. Then there is the next day during which I will need someone too. The rest of the time my husband will hopefully be home to help me.

His holiday starts 2 days after my surgery, I purposely wanted him to not be off those first couple of days because he only gets a week and I want to be "conscious" and able to enjoy some of it with him as apposed to him having to sit in the house all day with me during the worst part of it.

Wednesday, July 2, 2008

A decent boob job



Don't these look so much better? The 2 before shots are almost identical in comparison to the article below!

Bad boob jobs





YIKES!!!