2:39 am can't sleep

Well if you are wondering how I'm doing- I've had better nights! Youb jinxed me BIG BUTT! I teazed, thanks for checking in on me.

Sleeping in a propped up position is not the most comfortable. I couldn't sleep too propped or I'd tip over. Don't need that to deal with too. Plus did I mentioned my accules is stiff because I was so smart-my ass!- to trip over my foot the other morning. What idiot does that? Just me.. Silicone must be leaking.

Tip for shared sleepers: use you own blankie so you don't have to worry about husband pulling it every time and potentially ripping your pump.

My husband does these things that I call shrimp jumps or shrimp dives and then there's the whale dive. A shrimp jump is a small adjustment by full body, no arms involved, in your bed, with a little bounce. A shrimp dive is more of an arched shrimp jump and a whale dive is a full 180 turn aound that he does and he bumps me with his butt as he positions himself. The stupid phrases we come up with! (Plus the whale one came from when he gained slight weight and I teazed him.) I'm such a mean wife. Its all in good fun though.

So yes, I can't take any more valium until 4:15 so I'm stuck on my livingroom couch, super comfy, blogging about shrimp jumps at almost 3am.

Of course, the husband is trying to snuggle with me all the time and then I have to push him away so his hands stay away from me.

Last night I looked through the side bandages and saw I had these bloody pipes on the side from the pump. I thought there was bloody water drainage involved. All I saw all day was this kangaroo pouch (seriously fanny pack) looking thing with what looks like 2ml/h meds in it.

My nurse called me to check on me. She was delighted to hear I wasn't nauseated. And very alert.

She said it was normal to have bubbles under my skin all the way up to my snoeshie (my vajayjay- did I mention that's my nickname, its a cute word my mom still calls me and hub stole). It's from creating my "pockets" so its just air and water. I asked her if it was ok for me to have bloodyness where my srainage pumps are and she said yes. Though excessively, no. What is excessive I ask??? I'm guessing blood all over the place.

*This following paragraph contains gross material- don't read if your sensitive to gory stuff.*

Can't wait for that the pain pump to come out in 3 days, well 2 days from now. My one girl friend said when you remove it, it has the feeling (don't read this if you will bw grossed out- WARNING. of pulling out a tampon. Great, guess how much I'm going to hate that. It should leave a pencil tip scar on the side boob.

I think its time to eat something before I take my meds so I won't feel ill. I'm going to do the 1 valium every 4 hours again because the 2 just feels like I have to wait forever!

Dr Izenberg from saint josephs mercy called last night too. He'll be over at 6:15am. I guess I'll make him some coffee- poor guy. Doctors work so hard and long hours in their personal time. Hope he likes lattes!

Can't wait to see them! I'm just dying. I think I'll get to put on a sports bra and have a shower today. Hooray!

Thank you for the kind posts. It's an absolute treat. I'm suppose to get a little depressed post surgery for a few days while in pain so the kind words really help. I'm feeling a little teary right now. Some sleep, food and pain meds should help.

I hope this blog is useful to other woman who too consider having any kind of surgery done.

On that note, time to go take care of myself.


Sleep tight everyone, as I'm surely not.