The girls are coming along just great!

Hi guys, I have not blogged in a while. Sorry about that!

I have thought to do so many times but I have nothing new to tell you guys.

The girls are still doing just great. I've been sleeping braless for weeks now.

I ran 2 miles a few nights ago- I know- pretty lame but I am just taking it easy.

I am no longer having those awful shooting pains in my chest- that was the worst thing of everything I went through.

I have had so many ladies complement me on how they look- incl the friends who have had the surgery and who recommended them.

My best friend, let's call her Andy, won't stop staring at them though. You won't believe how many times she's seen them and still stares at them! She's worse than a guy.

Anyways, I'll update some pics soon but so far I think they still lool the same.

Dreaming perhaps?

I'm not sure if I was dreaming this or what but I remember something about burning pains in my breast last night. Almost like shooting pains I guess.

Weird thing is that I don't remember whether I was dreaming about it or actually experiencing it.

Oh well, either way, I hear it's normal.

Yesterday I noticed stretch marks on the side of my breasts- something I was anticipating but of course I just thought- "darn it".

Ps. "Special time" with your husband is a great time for boob massaging. Especially when you get a full body massage...

A photo update: Day 16

We are getting there, slowly but surely. I spoke with a friend of mine who had her breasts done too and also has silicone. She said that you only really get to appreciate the softness somewhere between 4-6 months.

That being said, they are already feeling really soft to me so any improvement is an added bonus I guess.

Day 15: Sensitive and itchy!

So, knock on wood, the burning has eased up and I am now so itchy I can pull my nipples off!

So yes, every day is a better day. I guess.

Sleeping at night is improving but the boobs still hurt as I am dying to sleep on my side. Guess that might take a couple of more weeks.

Did I mention my scars seem to be doing OK. The funny thing is that I can't see them because I can't see underneath my breasts. Odd but expected.

I lost 5 pounds before surgery, by accident, and I'm hoping to gain that back and more over the next few months. In regard to my weight, it causes you to see wrinkling on the side when you lean all the way over. Pretty weird looking but that's only when I'm braless.

I do think they have been changing a bit because they look smaller to me suddenly. Not disappointingly smaller though. I'm kind of pleased because I felt I could've gone a few cc's smaller. But maybe they are not smaller and just adjusting in shape? As they should.

Every time I walk past my husband, who is yet to get over them, he says: OMG. Look at you! Do you know how nice it is to hear that when you look your worst wearing nothing more than a stained tshirt and shorts?

Almost 2 weeks post-op

OMG I am sooo sorry for disappearing! I was on holiday where internet connections are like urban myths.

First of all, the girls are doing great. I think at least :)

I admit I've been really bad. I'm not massaging frequently enough. Some days not at all.

They are changing though- promise to post some pics soon.

I'm having a hard day, let me tell you, for some reason they feel like they burn when I touch them or when my clothes rub against them. It's just killing me. I hear it's because of my nerves recovering. Which is a good sign. I am just hoping the burning stops soon.

Just to quickly recap over the last week and a half:
I pretty much stopped my painkillers (tylenol) a week after surgery. The only thing that was hard was the fact that sleeping was pretty painful. I would get such awful feelings of pressure. I'm guessing because I wasn't moving and everything would get stiff.

Another thing that sucks is that I still can't snuggle at night or sleep on my side. Ugh. Guess how annoying that is.

I was suppose to have my stitches removed but I just had the hardest time getting away from work. So I had my husband (don't worry he's a surgeon) remove it. It took 2min. I am however going back to have them just check things out to check for capsular contraction/ how my scar is healing etc.

I'll keep you guys posted!
Thanks for the love :)

When bra's are hard to find...

I heard that it would be hard to find bra's in my size but geeze, I didn't expect it to be this hard.

All my VSecret gift cards are going to have to be put to online purchases I'm afraid. Apparently 32D is not a size they carry in any of their stores. Ugh.

What really annoyed me was that they are so desperate for sales that they even wanted to put me in a 34C as an alternative. How about, "no". I rather want a bra that fits perfectly!

So some disappointment later I went to Macy's and settled for some Calvin Klein bra's. I found the prettiest pink one. Plus did you know how comfortable a wireless, non-padded bra is? I only got 2 as I am concerned my size might go down with the swelling and I might as well get by with a couple for another few weeks or so.

Did I mention how great I am feeling today. I have hardly used any tylenol but I did however get tired in my arms after several hours of shopping.

I can't wait to see the "final" result.
xxx

Sleeping still sucks

Last night was a little tough. I still had some stabbing pains in my chest- which I hear is normal. I'm having it in my left implant side. The problem with sleeping is that I have found it to be hard because your body is still for so long so it feels as if the muscles are tightning up, so when you wake or move its just an awful feeling of pressure perssing down on you.

Last night was my first night without vicodin so maybe that made it a little harder too. I feel so much more refreshed and "conscious" today. I am also now only taking extra strength tylenol every 6hours. So I'm sleeping longer without having to wake. my next dose is as 10a.

My mood yesterday was irretated because I was just so uncomfortable. I must of had been awake for 3hours during the day. I was just soooo tired.

I am hoping to go see WallE today if I feel rested enough. I'm craving movie theater popcorn and something funny!

So I'm still in my PJ's, but here are some pictures that I took like 3 min after I woke. They are still a little rectangular in the shape between my breasts but that is normal. Do ou know what's nice? My tank top actually fits!

Ugh, it's time for a boob massage. Not the most fun activity at this point.

PS. I think they look pretty nice for 3 days post op. Especially if you consider how much more they will change over the next 6 weeks minimum.

MPP, i'm hoping for playboy boobies too!

Pain Pump free at last

My wonderful husband was kind enought to remove my pump tonight.

I was really nervous. The only discomfort was the tape being pulled off my skin.

So for the record, I could not even feel the slightest sensation of the pump tubing being removed. You won't believe how far in it was though! I only peeked once and my husband pulled out a good 10inches of tubing. Who knows how much it truly was! I just yelled: omg that is disgusting!

What was really nice was to be able to shower without a bag hanging around my neck.

I followed the shower by a looong massage- I haven't been massaging nearly enough. I did the exercise which I refered to in a previous post and then I just rubbed them with body butter nice and slowly. I think that helped with the ridiculous amount of itching from my skin being stretched. I tend to feel more itchiness when I remove my sportsbra.

I'm having partial sensations in my breasts- which I hope is a good sign.

Do you know what I hate most about my breasts right now? That my nipples look huge. Can't wait for them to calm down! Oh and that my boobs aren't "settled" enough yet.

Ok, I know its not even day 3 yet but I'm excited! My husband is like "all right, they are awesome!".

Good night guys, I'll take some more pictures soon to share the progress with you.

Does recovery ever end?

Have had better days. I got plenty of shut eye last night. Went to bed at 5p. Got up for an hour at 7p. Back to bed and got up at 8am. I did however get up to go sleep on the cough at 1am. A big improvement from the night before.

I went to salon vox this morning to have my hair washed and dryed. Not being a diva but you try and wash your own hair in my position- not so easy.

I took my last vicodin last night at 5am. Even though it helps for the discomfort its just not worth the feeling of yuckiness afterwards. Dizzy, slurring, nauseated etc. My sugeon said I should just do tylenol extra strength for now.

So then I discover I have a discharge sheet to read through (in looking for my dr number). Wish I had found it sooner! All kinds of useful info on there.

So I have to wear a sportsbra for 3months because we don't want the boobs the get droopy. We want them to remain perky but settled. No push up bra because that will hinder the pocket forming. I'm ok with that.

Massaging them sucks. I get so tired after touching them- I have to nap!

Oh and my pump is empty so I get to have my husband remove that tonight. Thank goodness. I less thing to worry about. Now I can shower in peace. Somewhat at least.

I'm sleepy. Talk later!

Gifts for me?

My dearest friend, lets call her Emily, came by today and gave me the cutest card with a Victoria Secret gift card inside. How sweet was that? Oh and how cani forget the large pirex of yummy brownies she brought me? That's what friends are for! She even bathed me :)

I think somewhere I might of had mentioned that www.cprs-aa.com where my surgeon is listed gave me a wonderful gift bag with all kids of goodies in them. As you can see by the photos, I got Glomoist lip treatment, body butter in citrus lavender form their glospa, an SPF product from Sun Smart and thermal spring wate for my face by Avene. What a lovely treat.

Oh and then there where the gorgeous flowers my husband got me.

I'm a princess for a week.... and it feels so good!

Post op day 1 pictures- NUDE

Now remember, they are still extremelly swollen and have to drop in the coming months. This in NOT how they will look. So judge later if you want. Saying something like "ew, they look weird you should never of had done it", makes no sense!
i'm very pleased and no bruising either! I just realised my nipples are 100% numb! What an odd feeling. BTW, it took me 10 min to pull the zipper up. SOOO tight. That's the first time i had that prob! hehe







Sorry, I originally wrote day 2 post op, I was clearly confused.

Now that I got some shut eye...

Guess what I was doing this morning at 5am. Making a pot of coffee, for my husband before he had to leave for work. Seriously, I so need to change this blogs name to confessions of a trophy wife like some sad sad human being once teased me. Not only is it true but it's funny. No really, I'm not trophy material. Just a wife who feels bad for her husbands 80h work schedule.

So, after brewing coffee, I made some turkey bacon and baked some biscuits for my Dr.and house guests. Dr came over for a few minutes. Put me in my new zip front bra and addressed some leaking of my pain pump on my left side. All we can do is gauze it, it will be out soon enough anyways.

He showed me some massage excersises. It was pretty painful. He was like, are you going to pass out? I was like, no, im ok it just hurts real bad. All it is, is me sitting up straight, stretching out my left arm and pushing the left boob up on the side and bottom until it has a push up bra look. Thats to help form the pockets better and help healing along. So you do it with both sides a couple of times a day. All i can say is it hurts like hell when you do that. phew.

MIL is going to go get some gauze for me at CVS in a minute. My girl friend is coming over and bringing me some Mcd's fries as a treat! yum. I'm going to ask her to do my make up. So that I feel decent.

The vicodin, which I took at 7ish, I need to go check when i took it exaclty, is making me feeling kind of out of it but it helps me sleep at least. Which i need. It feels like it helps for 3h, not 4. So everytime it's just that hour that I need to get through. I have to say, my spelling and grammar is so off! I don't reread my blog before I publish so when I go back later I see this weird sentence construction and typos like you wont believe. Im so sorry about that! Im feeling a bit out of it now. I'm going to go back to sleep.

I'm sleeping on the couch now because it's too hard in bed. I'm slightly sleeping to my right which is very comfy. I swear I passed out at 7:10 and woke at 8:50 when my husband called.

I'm going to go take some pics now and I'll post them in a few minutes.

OMG can't wait to go shower! i need it- gross! It's beena whole 28h!!!!!!

I lterally ate a pack of bacon today. All of it! And it's not even 10am yet! Atleast I have an appetite.

2:39 am can't sleep

Well if you are wondering how I'm doing- I've had better nights! Youb jinxed me BIG BUTT! I teazed, thanks for checking in on me.

Sleeping in a propped up position is not the most comfortable. I couldn't sleep too propped or I'd tip over. Don't need that to deal with too. Plus did I mentioned my accules is stiff because I was so smart-my ass!- to trip over my foot the other morning. What idiot does that? Just me.. Silicone must be leaking.

Tip for shared sleepers: use you own blankie so you don't have to worry about husband pulling it every time and potentially ripping your pump.

My husband does these things that I call shrimp jumps or shrimp dives and then there's the whale dive. A shrimp jump is a small adjustment by full body, no arms involved, in your bed, with a little bounce. A shrimp dive is more of an arched shrimp jump and a whale dive is a full 180 turn aound that he does and he bumps me with his butt as he positions himself. The stupid phrases we come up with! (Plus the whale one came from when he gained slight weight and I teazed him.) I'm such a mean wife. Its all in good fun though.

So yes, I can't take any more valium until 4:15 so I'm stuck on my livingroom couch, super comfy, blogging about shrimp jumps at almost 3am.

Of course, the husband is trying to snuggle with me all the time and then I have to push him away so his hands stay away from me.

Last night I looked through the side bandages and saw I had these bloody pipes on the side from the pump. I thought there was bloody water drainage involved. All I saw all day was this kangaroo pouch (seriously fanny pack) looking thing with what looks like 2ml/h meds in it.

My nurse called me to check on me. She was delighted to hear I wasn't nauseated. And very alert.

She said it was normal to have bubbles under my skin all the way up to my snoeshie (my vajayjay- did I mention that's my nickname, its a cute word my mom still calls me and hub stole). It's from creating my "pockets" so its just air and water. I asked her if it was ok for me to have bloodyness where my srainage pumps are and she said yes. Though excessively, no. What is excessive I ask??? I'm guessing blood all over the place.

*This following paragraph contains gross material- don't read if your sensitive to gory stuff.*

Can't wait for that the pain pump to come out in 3 days, well 2 days from now. My one girl friend said when you remove it, it has the feeling (don't read this if you will bw grossed out- WARNING. of pulling out a tampon. Great, guess how much I'm going to hate that. It should leave a pencil tip scar on the side boob.

I think its time to eat something before I take my meds so I won't feel ill. I'm going to do the 1 valium every 4 hours again because the 2 just feels like I have to wait forever!

Dr Izenberg from saint josephs mercy called last night too. He'll be over at 6:15am. I guess I'll make him some coffee- poor guy. Doctors work so hard and long hours in their personal time. Hope he likes lattes!

Can't wait to see them! I'm just dying. I think I'll get to put on a sports bra and have a shower today. Hooray!

Thank you for the kind posts. It's an absolute treat. I'm suppose to get a little depressed post surgery for a few days while in pain so the kind words really help. I'm feeling a little teary right now. Some sleep, food and pain meds should help.

I hope this blog is useful to other woman who too consider having any kind of surgery done.

On that note, time to go take care of myself.


Sleep tight everyone, as I'm surely not.

About my 1st post op day

OK so i might be paying the price tomorrow but....

This all means a lot to me.

I went in at 6:45a, peed in a cup for a pregnancy test, put my robe, socks and calf things on. Oh and a hairnet thing. They put me in a lovely recliner chair with a thermal blanket. Fetched everything for me out of my hospital bag, my pills, documents etc. They even opened the faucet for the water to warm up so my hands wouldn't be cold when I wash them!

Everyone was kind, happy, positive and sweet. Dr Izenberg came in and did my markings in dot like markings (easier and less to clean).

At 7:30 I walked into the room next door, it was in a hospital. They helped me into my bed with pillows and warm blankets. Warned me of any cold sensations. Numbed my hand before they inserted the IV. Explained all potential sensations. Just treated me like a princess!

After the IV was inserted the nurse anestestist told me that she just released the anestesia. I literally responded, oh already, great, whoooooooooooo........ Yeah really it was in an instant. No spinning room nothing. At least, if it was I don't recall a thing.
My next memory was waking up in my chair under my cover with a registered nurse monitoring my blood pressure.

I started to cry. She said: "are you in pain?" I said: I feel great, I just wish my husband was here to tell me he loves me". She gave me a tissue and wiped my eyes. I was a little emotional before the surgery. She responded with: Would you like for me to call your MIL to come in now? And she did.

I peaked while still and my chair. They looked so great! Not even up high as they sometimes are which means the placement is great and if all is well they will drop to a more natural place.

MY MIL was delighted by my size. I think she was scared they would end up too big! She's been complimenting me all day!

SHe drove me home, I took some pics for you guys, facebooked, send some emails and napped an half hour later for just 2 hours. I've been up and about all day.

I've been eating butterscoth jello, which she made. Saltines, bananas and had a reb bull, my fav drink. I'm sure the caffeine can't be good for me but I was craving it. I'm doing the bland food thing so I won't strain my digestive system.

Apart from my pain pump which makes me look like flavor flave, I had 1 vicodin after my nap along with an over the counter stool softner. I should take the stool softner only twice a day. I had another vicodin at 6:30.

I walked to my mailbox today which left me out of breath once I came up the stairs. I was walking at a snail pace. My neighbors must of had thought I was high! I only did that at 5p.

Around lunch I was paying on line bills etc.
I've been on the phone ALL day. Started to read the great gatsby. Sorry too much effort to use caps all the time. Tried to close my eyes but I was just too excited.

I feel awesome, except for the feeling of a suma wrestler sitting on my chest. I think I feel slight plopping now, which is just the air moving its way out... or my body telling me to stop typing.

Dr told me I can put my bikini on after a week. He's coming over tomorrow to my house to check on me. How sweet.
Did I forget to mention they gifted me a bag of their beauty products? Not to be used on the incisions until after they heal and the Dr says it's ok.

My face color is a bit off but I slapped on some face tanner 2 days ago so I do look loads better with it.

OK, my dvd of desperate housewives is coming so I need to go relax now and be a good patient!

WIshing all you well

For "Does this moniker make my butt look big"

Sorry couldn't resist.....

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=41APzy5kqBU

That was one hell of a cocktail..... 2 hours post surgery

I'm so drugged up this is the best I can do ladies.
No pain yet, just pressure on my chest.
I'm sleepy

Thinking positive- or maybe not?

I still don't feel like I'm actually going through this.

Tomorrow this time I'll be crying: why did I do this to myself?

This all a little crazy. I've been preparing my hospital bag and even that has not really made things sink in yet.

I guess when I'm driving over tomorrow and they start drawing on me with a marker it will hit me.

I still need to go to the bank, grocery shop, pick up my prescription, do my hair and remove all nail polish and navigate MIL flight arrival.Did I forget to mention that I have to work late tonight? And get up early to leave at 6:15a? Gross. That's way too early for me. And fast! I'm a mid night snacker. Guess how much that is going to suck!

Poor me. And all is self inflicted. No pain- no gain!

I'll keep you guys posted as soon as I can touch my keypad!
And I'll be away from ISYN for a while. Since depression is a post surgery side effect in most cases I'll be keeping away from "the envious kind".

Pre-op to do list

1. Fill prescriptions
2. Stock up on recovery snacks
3. Put all important phone numbers for plastic surgery office next to your phone incase of complications.
4. Clear bedside of all junk and make space for only necessary objects.
5. Make sure you have your recovery garments.
6. Purchase dial soap for bathing the night before and morning of.
7. Remove all nail polish- for surgeons to see if your nails turn blue from lack of oxygen.
8. Use make up remover to get rid of all mascara.
9. Pre-cook food for recovery.
10. Remember to not eat or drink anything before surgery.
11. Relax

Wait...

I forgot to announce the obvious. 3 DAYS TO GO!

Bringing up the obvious to your employers

In any professional environment no one has the right to question things that are private.

I wanted to bring the subject of my surgery up because it could possibly affect my work performance initially but I didn't know how.

So last night I was asked to help out the morning of my first day of holiday. I felt bad because the dad would be all by himself and I knew there was just no way that I would be able to help. So I just told him- slightly. I said: I would love to but I'm having a feminine surgery that morning.

After I send that I thought, oh no, what if they think it's something serious and it ends up like that vaginal rejuvination story.

Thankfully the mom (who I adore) asked me if I was ok this morning so I just told her the details.

I said I am having breast surgery and then it took her a second to realise what I meant.

I was so surprised by how happy she was for me. She was oh, I'm so having that done after we decide if we will be having any more kids. She said after all the breastfeeding her boobs just "deflated". (She's also skinny and petite- though very beautiful!)

I was kind of surprised at her openess to the subject. She was of course tactfully asking about saline/silicone. I just told her what I was getting.

I made it clear that I don't want to have watermelons for boobs. She laughed and thought it was funny. I wanted her to know that I just wanted to look in proportion and not like an over exposed bimbo.
I'm kind of relieved now.

I should've known that they would be supportive and happy for me. Shame on me for not knowing or doubting their thoughtfulness.